I had a very sort of long conversation with joe the other day. About us and everything. The past, the future, the present. All those good thing that should have been settle ages ago.
As usual i start the conversation. I wish him happy new year and the best for all the goals he sets for this year. I mean how should i know he is the type of person yg ada buat goals or not. Coz im not. Just baru tahun ni i baru nk start buat. Lols. And i told him that i realize hows foolish i am for all the things i said before. Semuanya di sebabkan perasaan marah. Memang kalo marah tu takyah ckp pape. Senyap sudah. I also say that i will hold on to his words or question tu semua. I nk go with the flow. If ada jodoh, adalah. And i mention psl blackpink rockstar tu ye. Ha, kali ni takde sebab dia nk ckp i lupa ke apa. And btw, i n joe like the not so officially tubuhkn band ni ye. This is nothing to do with the korean bank okayy. Our band dh ditubuhkan since 2008 di mana original member dia adalah i, joe, then gf joe yg i lupa nama dia n ashraf. But then both of them broke up with us so tinggal i n joe. Which smpai la ni tak cari member yg baru. So i dont think so it will officially will be form unfortunately. Yeah, that is basically tu je rasanya apa yg i ckp ngan dia. Oh and i mintak tolong carikan tiket bola macam biasa. Hahaha.. Mcm biasa i tak harap dia balas. Kalo tak balas pun takpe. At least i dont need to think or say anything. It save my energy. But then if dia balas, it is up to me kalo nak balas or tak depends on what the content is.
But then as usually, cliche as it may seems, dia balas cuma lmbt sehari. Time zone kteorng mmg different pun. Later i told you why. He was being nice. Wishing me the same and all.He agrred though about going with the flow. He told me not to think about it that much as i still am young, i got the whole world in front of me. Yelah, i faham. We both still nak achieve whatever our dream is. We both still young and foolish and broke. He also apologize for all the things that happen before. He realize and see of all the things happen but maybe he dont know how to react and what to say. He jokes about the band of us and about him being ulat tiket i. But assure me that he will find it for me if he can. And he also said that he know he was not the 'good guy'...
At first i mula ingt tak nak balas but then that 'good guy' makes me want to reply. I told him that i wont be thinking much about us as i nak focus on my career this year. I go with the flow. I told him i forgave him. We both patut bukak buku baru. Tahun baru, buku baru, permulaan baru. And about the good guy, i cakaplah yg i kenal dia dh 12 tahun bukan 12 saat. I kenal dia dari zaman dia nakal giler sampai lah sekrng dh berubah, elok je i tgk. Serious i ckp banyak giler perubahan dia. Kalo imbau balik masa mula2 kteorng kenal dlu, i mcm tak caya je yg i manage to befriend dia. I mean dia like out of my league as a friend. Even my mom tak approve our friendship at first. So i tak perlu explain lebih. I think you guys get it. And even though we knew each other quite long, i know that i not really knew him too well. But still kalo i manage kawan ngan dia smpai sekrng, mesti ada sebab. And it is not because i had like a big crush on him okayy. I accept him for who he is, every flaws.. i accept.
And i thought i ended there but it didnt. The thing yg buat i suka kat dia is how he give advice and positive vibe. Dari dulu lagi dia selalu nasihat i, give me support. So dia nasihat kn i psl kerje, sruh focus psl kerje, jgn bawak masalah dalam kerje nnti haywire jadinya. The big surprise is that dia dh berhenti kerje. And he is looking for new job. I terkejut gaklah. Sbb i ingt dia still with the old job cuma i tau lah dia mmg tgh cari kerje lain. Lebih kurng mcm i. But i wish him the best in things he do. Okay, part yg i ckp psl timezone tu. Dia mention yg kitadh kenal each other about 13years. Sbb nyer dia kira masa i umur darjah 6. Yg i lak ckp 12 tahun sbb mmg kenal masa form 1 pun. Masa darjah 6 tu ckp kt dalam fon pun memarah memasing. Apa cer. Tapi mcm biasa. I ye kan jelah. We both timezone mmg lain pun.
This is like the very first time we both having a long conversation. Selalunya i msg panjang2, dia bukan respon pun. Hahaha.. Lols. But it was a very good long conversation. I bersyukur and feeling glad we finally sort everything out. I guess we wait and see jelah. If we meant to be, we meet again somehow somewhere. For now we go with the flow.
At first i mula ingt tak nak balas but then that 'good guy' makes me want to reply. I told him that i wont be thinking much about us as i nak focus on my career this year. I go with the flow. I told him i forgave him. We both patut bukak buku baru. Tahun baru, buku baru, permulaan baru. And about the good guy, i cakaplah yg i kenal dia dh 12 tahun bukan 12 saat. I kenal dia dari zaman dia nakal giler sampai lah sekrng dh berubah, elok je i tgk. Serious i ckp banyak giler perubahan dia. Kalo imbau balik masa mula2 kteorng kenal dlu, i mcm tak caya je yg i manage to befriend dia. I mean dia like out of my league as a friend. Even my mom tak approve our friendship at first. So i tak perlu explain lebih. I think you guys get it. And even though we knew each other quite long, i know that i not really knew him too well. But still kalo i manage kawan ngan dia smpai sekrng, mesti ada sebab. And it is not because i had like a big crush on him okayy. I accept him for who he is, every flaws.. i accept.
And i thought i ended there but it didnt. The thing yg buat i suka kat dia is how he give advice and positive vibe. Dari dulu lagi dia selalu nasihat i, give me support. So dia nasihat kn i psl kerje, sruh focus psl kerje, jgn bawak masalah dalam kerje nnti haywire jadinya. The big surprise is that dia dh berhenti kerje. And he is looking for new job. I terkejut gaklah. Sbb i ingt dia still with the old job cuma i tau lah dia mmg tgh cari kerje lain. Lebih kurng mcm i. But i wish him the best in things he do. Okay, part yg i ckp psl timezone tu. Dia mention yg kitadh kenal each other about 13years. Sbb nyer dia kira masa i umur darjah 6. Yg i lak ckp 12 tahun sbb mmg kenal masa form 1 pun. Masa darjah 6 tu ckp kt dalam fon pun memarah memasing. Apa cer. Tapi mcm biasa. I ye kan jelah. We both timezone mmg lain pun.
This is like the very first time we both having a long conversation. Selalunya i msg panjang2, dia bukan respon pun. Hahaha.. Lols. But it was a very good long conversation. I bersyukur and feeling glad we finally sort everything out. I guess we wait and see jelah. If we meant to be, we meet again somehow somewhere. For now we go with the flow.
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