Can i not wanting to make friends??

I realize that i have a problem of making friend. I tau i ckp i nk meet new people lah, making new friend lah sbb tu i choose uitm. But when im here, i just tak rasa nk make friend. Like having a small talk tu boleh lah. Tapi nk lebih2 tu taklah. I try to tell myself that this just for a while sebab baru lagi. Baru sebulan je kot. But then it really doesnt feel like reason dia sbb still baru. It was more to rebellious. Like hati i, diri i mmg taknak make friend. Like part of menentang dgn keras, habis habisan tak nak make friend. I know bad habit kan. Tah pape kn. But thats the true.

Aritu program rumah anak yatim tu pun i tak ambik port sgt. Like dorng ada buat meet up ke apa ke mesti i balik rumah ke or i just like too very lazy to attend. Kalo ikut kn, on the day itself pun i tak nak dtg tapi semua sbb markah, that damn 10% marks that gonna affect my pointer somehow. 😑 

Dlu masa kt matriks i facing the same thing cuma perasaan rebellious tu tak kuat mana lah. And i still make good friends with few of my fellow classmates, and the Amy dri kelas lain, dila my roomate, syihan my schoolmate. And bila kteorng kene buat teater to fulfill kokorikulum requirement, suddenly we all become close. Like really close and rasa lah bonding dia, team work dia. Then lepas habis teater tu, we still can lepak with each other, naik basikal, ambik gmbr. Tapi tahlah yg baru ni, maybe, just maybe after a few months things will be okay kot?? Right???

 

 

Ala, dlu masa degree pun, ingt tak i pernah mention i nak sgt men invisible kan diri then tetbe masuk sem 2 or 3 dh dikenali dh oleh classmate yg lain. I mean how can i hide my evil laugh kan? 😁 Then lepas tu ley lepak sesama, makan sesama. Thats when i become so close with fiqah smpai dia sekrng my person, my best friend. And now entahlah. Maybe tak jumpa bff baru but at least i make a few friend? Sekrng ni lah yg mcm i ok je adalah sara of course. I rasa mcm i dh meng attach kn diri i kt dia. Everything i nk dia involve name it group project and latest research project. Oh yeah kteorng nyer research project kene buat in group 2-3 instead of individual macam zaman degree dlu. Then i make a good friend with aina and ecah. Tu pun sbb dorng tegur i dlu. If not, i dont think so. But yeah, maybe just give a few month. Everything should be okay. Insyallah. 

Im not the only one having this problem. Turn out fiqah having the same problem too. Dia rasa malas giler nk buat kwan time master ni. But they all like so friendly, byk tegur and borak2 dgn dia so dia layan jelah. And dia takdelah ssh sgt mcm i.. Sbb dia ada familiar faces like dila, zuha, mira, dayah, nad and fai. While i... im basically alone and loner. Yelah, i tak kenal sape2 kot kat situ. It was new place, new course, new environment. Semua new. So imagine that...

So yeah, give it a few months. Lelama okay kot. Lelama tak de lah rasa awkward ke apa ke.. hopefully.. 

Not good in making/stay friends

If you knew me, you know that im not the kind of person yang throw herself deeper into a friendship. I didnt have many friends to be really honest. The thing is, people come and people go and i stopped hoping they stayed. Because people change like season and i pretend like i dont care about it. I think the only friends that stayed to me through this past few years were farah, nadia, mai n nadh. The girls that i dh anggap mcm sister i. I do anything for them thats for sure. At first of course lah i a bit skeptical sbb we been through this. A few of my friends dri sklah rendah, im not close with anymore padahal dlu rapat giler. So ble habis sklah menengah, somehow i thought i gonna be the same this time. Syukur tak. We still stick together. Wlaupun masing2 belajar kt tempat lain2, masing2 jauh, but we still find time to catch up, hangout. The best feeling is ble tak rasa pape awkward bila jumpa padahal dh bpe bulan gak lah tak jumpa.

And then come matrik. Hidup kt matrik mmg best, i dont deny that. But now i realize it was the best but somehow people yg i ingt maybe we could still catch up some of time, just lost in contact completely. But i never blame them sebab maybe im not really a good friend either. So whatever. I think the only people kt matrik yg i still contact is amy and dila. Tpi amy pun tak sgt sbb lain tempat belajar. But there was a time bila dia text i or i text dia and we catch up a bit. Dila, jgn ckp lah. Dri dlu smpai sekrng, she the only one yg i comfort cite about my life, love life, anything. Entahlah. Maybe sbb dlu roomate? Maybe. And wlaupun masing2 busy and wlaupun dua2 blajar kt ukm but we had different schedule sbb course lain2. But we always find some time to meet up, to catch up, tgk movie sama2, sleepover, makan2. Kteorng slalu ada heart-to-heart session bila jumpa. Bnde wajib sbb dri zaman matrik lagi, there will be time kteorng akan ada heart-to-heart session. So it is a must when we meet up. 

Then, the U life. Well, i tak expect untuk get close to people. To be honest masa awal2 sem tu, i pendiam pastu i love do things by myself or dgn roomate i time tulah. But then slowly, i knew some of them. We planned to go somewhere, mkan2, jalan2. Then the penang trip, get us much closer. Every fieldtrip that we went. I think that whats i miss the most. I tak pernah rasa this close to most of my classmate and i hope this feeling wont fade ever. Between them, i think the most i close with are fiqah, wani and sadila. Maybe sbb byk spent time kt lab sesama, buka puasa sesama, siapkn tesis sesama, makan2 sesama. Thats what make our bond strong. Nk lak slalu gak rempit ngan fiqah, gi makan2 ngan fiqah n tdo bilik fiqah, watching horror movie together. Wani lak sbb we spent so many time together kt lab siapkn our fyp, melalak dlm lab tu mcm kita yg punya, mkn sesama2. Sadila, well sadilah, our food master. Mana je tempat makan best2 tak gi ngan dia. Kalo takde dia, tak syok, takde feel nk mkn. Our food queen kan.

Im not the kind of person yg ada rmai kwn but im grateful with whatever and whoever i had now. 

Fyi, sorry to an old friend i met in laundry store just now. I tau i nmpk mcm minah sombong gila. The thing is im not good in making conversation but at least i said hi right? and its not like i buat2 tak tahu like i used to sometime, depends on the situation, time and space. Lols.

A Good Listener

It was nice to have those friend who not just understand what ive been through but really really give me good advice as if they feel what i feel. So, shout out to farah! Sorry my other girls. I love u guys and u guys are a great listener. Trust me. Just somehow i comfortable talk with farah when it comes to heart to heart problem. Dont be sad. U guys are great to but maybe in different things. I figure that out later. Haha..

So, i was like having a breakdown. No, i always having a breakdown lately/ It just that i didnt show it much. I mean what the hell? It just a minor breakdown. Not like im gonna doing stupid things anyway. I got a great friends and family that had been there for me, support me in everything i do. I dont need to do other bullshit.

Okay, i called farah. I really wanted to see her so bad. And i wanted to talk to her. Tetbe rasa teruk lak. Yelah. Mcm ble ada masalah je baru cari farah. OMG! Im a bad friend did i? I took granted on people. As if they wont leave me.. Mcm joe. Nahh.. u girls not like that kn?? u wont leave me right farah??

I feel like i got a trust issue lately. I feel like people are leaving me so i shall not sharing too much, having too deep conversation. But im talkactive. I love to talk. That just me.. Anyway, that wasnt the point..

I miss joe. Like so much it hurts. Sometime i shed a tear and i feel stupid. I mean i told myself i wont cry unless there are death happen. But i did cry that day. It just one of those day. Where things just went wrong and i just need joe to be here. I dont have to tell him whats my problem is. I just want him there. Thats all. I know it is so selfish right? Maybe it was me after all..

You know i told myself not to depend on people so much after ashraf left. I told myself that eventhough joe and the girls were my best friend but somehow i shouldnt relay on them high. They got life. They have to deal with their problem too. They cant forever be there for me. One day, they will settle down. have a family and they cant always be there. Mcm joe. Kalo dia dah kahwin nnti, xpsl2 jadi punca keretakn rumahtangga org tau. Mcm mana kalo tetbe wife dia jealous. Eventhought we were close friend, but somehow it need some boundaries. And the girls, ble dorng dah ada new life, they cant be there. Their family need them the most and they more important.

So, somehow, i need to learn to be independent. I need to learn to relay on myself and stop hoping too much on people. Or maybe i could just find a new friend that somehow like me. I mean not like having the same problem as i am. Just maybe single if i was single that time. But of course i was single that time. If not i could relay on my husband kn? Jap, nie mcm dah merapu.

Okay, the thing is.. i dont know.. i cant think.. cant i just have joe here. I jumpa klon dia kot kat sini. For the first time ever, i xjumpa klon ay. Pelik. So, klon joe nie sama kuliah bio ngan i. Dia ble pndg sekilas tu nmpk mcm samalah. Kalo tgk betul2, xsgt2. But somehow i couldnt help but hoping it was joe. Whats wrong with me anyway? I fall deep did i.. Hmm.. why am i doing this to myself! This is frustrating. I shall stop.

Annual Dinner #BlokF

Today sgt awesome.. Masa bngun pagi tadi mmg malas gila lah. dahlah malas pun ada niat nk skip. but alhamdulilah, xskip pun. i still go.. i mean, i wrote my name already. xkn nk biar team member down kot. nope. i was not dah kind of person..

Ada sukaneka tadi. yelah. arini annual dinner kan. pagi tu ada lah aktiviti sket. best gaklah. paling best masa maen tarik tali sbb smue mmg team work and supporting abis. cayalah aras 4. haha.. and who know just because bnde mcm nie je dah buat kita rapat kan.. i mean, dulu kalo jumpa pun just senyum je. but now ley tegur sapa. haha.. tapi sayang, nk abis baru rapat ek.. xpelah.. at least we built some memories together kn.. oh btw, kitaorng menang tarik tali lawan ngan aras 2! wohoo! aras 2 tu dahlah maen tipu, psycho tinggi gila and bndan smue mmg gempak2.. tapi alhamdulilah, kitaorng menang gak.. have fun lah..

Then tadi annual dinner. Okaylah. tapi xmeriah sgt lah sbb cara atur majlis tu ada kurng lah. xpe.. nnti buat lagi grant ye. eventhought im not going to be there no more. but i had fun. makan nasi hujan panas.. sebenarnya nasi beriani lah tapi dorng pnggil mcm tu. so, kita pun ikutlah...

But im having super fun today and super duper lazy as well sbb xsentuh buku langsung today. like great nasuha.. haha,, but it was an awesome night. be crazy with dila and those aras 4 blok F.

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Semlm mmg awesome! Alhamdulilah everything went well and the crowd love it! Okay.. ape nasuha ckp nie? xphm lah..haha..

Well, last night we got drama competition. After a month of practice it, now its time for action. Mmg berdebar and nervous lah smue. Yelah. Takut kan if things went unwell. But alhamdulilah... it goes smooth and just nice. Xkisah lah if menang or kalah. Tu kan adat pertandingan. Janji smue have fun and dah buat yg terbaik kan.. Ohmy.. gonn amiss it somehow. All the hardwork.. hmm..

And somehow bnde nie smue buat bonding kita lebih stronger. Yelah, slalu susah kot nk get together. Clash ngan other plans lah. Mcm2.. This is the memory we all shall cherish and cte kn anak, cucu, cicit kita.. hehe.. Gonna miss it somehow...

okay... its a rep everyone... :)

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Fab Day

So, i had a pretty good weekend last week. Really enjoy my day wlaupun terlari sana sini gak. Yelah mana taknya, janji ngan orng. Janji harus ditepati ye..

So, as usual i will having lunch date with amy on friday. Tu lah our routine kalo xde pape hal. Lepas mkn slalunya kteorng akan ke fatayat. Fatayat mcm tu kelas agama lah but to motivate diri and all that lah. But since aritu xde, the date is cut short. So, i end up tdo. Haha.. Jumaat kan, biasalah. Malam tu on9 and watching movie thai with dila yg i cte aritu.

Then malam tu jugak gi DST sbb ada busana muslimin. It was like fashion show lah tapi laen sket sbb dia mcm you tgh buat show about you fashion show. Well, actually i xphm pun. I was totally lost there. Mmg rasa nak balik je tapi sbb tujuan dtg tgk bnde alah tu sbb nk support Adah so tunggu jelah. Yelah, i expect mcm runaway show lah kn tapi x. Xphm gila lah, Layan...

Then malam sabtu, dating with mai since petang tu jadi. Yelah, mula2 ingt nk teman si dila gi makan tosai tetbe cancel lak. So, malam tulah baru dating ngan mai. Dating pun gi DST sbb nk kasi support kat diena and mj. Dorng msuk nasyid. But since dorng yg last perform. Gi lah dataran nk tgk bintang but hujan. So, kteorng end up lepak kat tepi dataran ngan mai and akmal. Dah abis tgk performance smue, mai and roomates dia, mj, deqna and ruby antr i balik blok i. On the way back, kitaorng nyanyi and tgk bulan and bintang. Tim enie hujan dah stop. So, really enjoy the night lah. Well, late at night sbb time tu dah pkul 12 am something. Haha..

with maisarah :)

Ahad kene bngun awal sbb i ganti one of my classmate yg kene menari dlm drama tu. Huhu.. xpasal. xpelah.. do people a favor and one day who know you might need it too. So, lepas dah penat2 menari lepak kat chinese street. Ada carnival that day. And ada date ngan amy lgi. Die nk tgk MIB3. So layan jelah. Lepas tu, i beli this wishing colourful bottle. Terserempak ngan mai. Rupanya dia nk beli gak and kat sblah i je. Bley i xperasan. Aigoo.. Mai belanja i satu. Thanks sayang :* pastu lunch ngan amy and roomate dia, piqah. Balik tdo sbb penat sgt. Malam tu suppose ada date ngan mai and akmal. Akmal belanja tgk twilight sbb dia kata kteorng nie twi-head. Lols. But cancel again sbb turn out dorng ada class math that night. what a bumer. But i had fun. I do.. Wlaupun keje belambak. Haha...

with amy. buat random faces while wait movie start

wishing bottle :)

btw, mai betul2 buat i heart attack semlm tau bila i dpt phone call from akmal saying yg mai pass out. Setgh jam lak tu! Its getting worst. dlu x mcm tu tau. mai, dont ever do that to me again kay! Dont make me worry like that. I risau tgk u mcm tu semlm tau. I rasa mcm if i had a car, im gonna drive you to the hospital this instant gak! Npe matriks xley ada keta. Kecemasan nie tau! She was my bestfriend. My half-sister. Hmm.. but alhamdulilah things dah okay now. Get rest kay sayang. I ada masa, i lawat you kat bilik you. Take care hati manis. :)

Random Talk

I miss it that moment when i giggle with my girls because of our crushes or someone that totally blow our mind off. Its not like we share the same crushes. No.. it just that, when we tend to be clumsy yet acting cool around our crushes coz we want to impress them. Yeah, we tend to do silly things and thats seem funny and we giggle somehow.

But now, my girls are away from me. Its not like i had nobody here. It just that... they never will be like my girls. I know mai here but i rarely see her. We had different classes and let just say, she busy sometime.
And there is my roomate, dila. I told her my crush. But i dont know. She.. well, this is hard. She not that type of girl who like to giggle like the school girl sometime. I miss nadia and farah though. I always told them about my love and scandalous life. But they so far away and i miss it.

And there was syihan, my old classmate who had same lecture with me. I did told her about this guy (previous post) who act like he like me with his sweet talker. To be honest, i regret it. I mean, i didnt feel comfortable with it. But if i want to talk to her about study. Yep, she fit in it anyhow.

And amy. The only one who remind me of my girls. I dont know how we click right away. Maybe its the way she talk to me or maybe her behaviour or maybe all of it. Well, i see her sometime. We had different class this sem so we rarely meet. But she always hug and say hi to me whenever we bump into each other as if we been bff since forever. Now, you know why she remind me of my girls. I trust her. I told her about my life, joe and ashraf. But this crush.. maybe just not yet. And is not like she knew him anyway. We different lecture remember? Unless it was last sem. Sadly, i like him just a few days before final. So, not really have time.

So, it just left me with this feeling. Yep, i guess i get used with bottle up with my feeling. I still usha dia like  nadia use to say how i look at people i like. Yeah nadia, that kinf of staring. Cant helping. It just me.
And since no one know i like him. And no one seem to notice the way i see him. I think i safe doing this particular behavior. Hehe.. And in another meaning, i left with my feeling bottle up inside me, the giggle i try hide outside and those crazy thought i had in my somehow.

Yeah, i think i can live with that :)

 

  

Feeling so close

Hey... meet amy.. my new friend.. The only girl yg i betul2 rasa selesa wlaupun im not sharing mostly about me to her. bukan nak kata i xrapat ngan my roomate or xselesa ngan dorng. Teha, dila and pei shan really2 nice and i told them about ashraf, joe and ay. Tapi entah.. bila ngan amy, i felt like im with girls. Yeah.. dia mcm penawar hati i. But im not gonna replace you guys i promise.

Just that i miss you guys like crazy and with amy around, im feeling like i close to you guys. She like miss smarty-pant like nadia, sweet + motherly like mai, funny and gila2 mcm nadh, understanding and ske nyanyi like farah.. see, im feeling like i had the 4 of you around me ngan amy. Btw, dia dri tngjung agas sma mcm joe. Nmpk chemistry dia mcm mana?? Haha... :D

I'll be there

I always love my relationship with people. Xkisah lah new one ke, old one ke. I love keeping it. Nk pulak tu serasi, chemical bond dia kuat and i feel completely comfortable around them. Bonus mark tu...

I hate seeing the people i love being sad. Well, sape x kan. Laenlah kalo dia jenis manusia yg xde hati dan xde perut kan??.. huish, cam mne lah nk mkn tu pastu nk buat digestion process lak tu. Xley bygkan..

So, when one of my penawar hati suddenly had problem and pretty upset with it. I worried. I wanna know the story and help solve the solution. Xkiralah kalo terpaksa guna kuasa realpolitik ke, kuasa veto ke, kuasa magneto ke... i will, for them..

Mcm mai dulu.. alhamdulilah, rasanya sekrng dah okay kot. Well, she was upset coz people ckp dia dah berubah since she with akmal. For me, kau sape nk ckp my sista berubah. Kau kenal dia pun like less than 2year kot. I know her for 8years. I know all the bad and good thing about her. And i accept her for who she is. Kalo kau xley accept, xyah lah kwn ngan dia. Xyahlah nk judge dia. Xyahlah nk get close pun tnye bnde tah pape kat dia.. just mind ur own business lah wei!

And as for nadh.. i dont know whats you being through now. I wish i was right by ur side now. I wish i could fly terua gi umah u. I wish our distance wasnt that far.. tapi nk wat cam mana kan? Redha jelah. So, nadh, be strong kay. Pray to Allah. Insyallah Allah will help us and guide us to the right path, to a solution. And always keep in mind that i always there whenever u need me kay! (>^ω^<)

And joe.. i know we both busy with our lives right now so we not that close like we use to. But remember this, i never forget about u. Not once and not forever. You my bestguyfriend i ever had. You the only guy i know that i didnt mind doing those crazy act and saying those random things. :)
I never wanted to lose my pentol and my penawar hati. May this friendship last as long as we shall lives. Insyallah.

The Conservation

I didnt realize he texts me until yesterday. I dont know why i didnt realize it. He replied it a few minutes after i send it. I am pretty sure i dint hear my fon ring nor that i see any new message once i unlock my fon. This is pretty weird. Is it my fon doesnt want me to talk to him?? Jeng3...

But alhamdulilah, we still be friends until now, after all that we been through. Ececeh... And aku redha if he's not mean for me. I mean im very sure Allah is planning somwthing better for me in the future. Insyallah. 

We texting for hours yesterday. Dah lama xborak. So fhm2 jelah. Mcm2 bnde diborak kn nya.. Yg xley blah yg nie lah.. Haha.. 

The thing about us is that we cant stop each other from bermanja2. And we cant stop ourselves from being away. This is just a friendship but it means a lot to me as he was near with me.

Btw, selamat menyambut ramadhan al-mubarak :))

Kinda sleepover..

Last night, me and my roomates do a sleepover! Haha.. Xley blah je. Padahal mmg dah sebilik je tau. Cite nk lebih. So, it was kinda a sleepover.

Kitaorng angkat tilam masing2. Then letak kat lantai. And boom.. Zzzz... Baring2, borak2, gelak2 pastu entah mcm mne tetdo. Bngun2 kul 9. Nak mandi punya lah liat sebab sejuk. So, smue lepak2. Dkt kul 10 baru nak mandi. Mandi sma2 lak tu. Bkn 1 bilik air lah tapi row yg sme. Sebelah2. Mandi smbil jerit2 and borak2.

Then brunch. Pkai baju sme2. Baru nmpk teamwork kan. Haha.. It was fun tapi xsabar gila nk balik minggu depan. Cant wait!! :D

PS: kita nie sejak akhir2 nie byk tol mengupdate kan.. Maklumlah, kita dah download blogger app kat fon. Senang lah kan. And2 nk cover balik bulan jun xupdate satu habuk pun. :))

Those crazy thing

Harinie kita excited gila. Apart from dpt spending time with mai again. I got a chance to donate my blood. Happy x. Haha.. Bngun2 pagi tu, siap2 and gi maen bubbles with mai. Yep, the things we love to play together. Suprisingly, i got to meet a new friend that somehow very special to mai. I think. He's name is akmal. Let me tell what i think of him.

He's a quite person but funny at the same time. He's not being awkward and can really adapt with everything. He's was shy at first then after that he was okay. I think ny girls will agree with me and will like him. Oh, lpe nk tambah. For what i saw, die sgt baik + caring + gentlemen. I am sure mai is the luckiest girl to have him if they end up together. Insyallah. I pray for you mai :)

And pasal blood tu, i didnt get to donate it. Borang habis. Mcm hampeh je. Xpelah. Xde rezeki agaknya. Insyallah, di tempat lain mungkin ada. Okay, xnk cte lebih2. Buat sedey je.

Okay, tdi buat keje gila. Me, mai and akmal seludup keluar dari kmj. Without baju formal and matriks card. Mmg syok. Yelah, nasuha mana xpernah buat bnde2 mcm tu kan. Every year mesti ada punyalah. Haha.. But we all naik keta cousin akmal lah. Mng smue cover muka xbersalah lah dlm keta tu. Mmg xbley blah je kot. Haha..

But it was fun. Insyallah, next year will be do it again or the other crazy thing. Im a rule breaker. Haha.. :D

New place, new experience

Its been long since i updating my blogger... Been ages i guess.. Oaky.. Nmpk lebih2 lah pulak.. Haha,. Bukan apa.. Sejak masuk kmj nie smpai sekrng xsempat2 nk on9. Sempat sebenarnya tapi nk on lappy tu je yg malas sket. Nie kenapa rajin? Sebab kita nk buat keje folio sbb tu kita on jap. Beside kerja dah abis kan.. Enjoy lah kejap.

Duduk kat kmj nie so so and so je.. Homework banyak gila! Kawan pun ramai gak. Owh, btw, my  roomates are pretty awesome. Semua sekepala but of course they cant replace my girls, they the awesomeness in my life. Rindu nyer kat dorng. So, gmbr nie atas permintaan nadh and farah :)

with my roomate, dila and teha

my classmate smue pun mmg best2.. xselfish and anti-sosial lah... so, easy ley to tiru2 homework.. alah, macam xbiasa. haha...

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study was okay.. i start to like physic a bit. a bit je tau.. i still and will always do love chemistry. isnyallah. i dont like bio! -.- tapi sebaik roomate sama course ngan kita so ley lah kongsi2 maklumah. hehe.. English was a always a fun subject. My favorite class in the moment walaupun kene speak in english all the time. Kalo x, kene bayar 50 sen. An dthe one who collect it is ME! Yeah, miss yello.. Kenapa miss yellow? Cite die mcm nie, that day, i wore a very bright yellow.. All yellow except shoes and bag lah. Yellow tu sgt striking smpai kita rasa orng bley buta jap tgk kita. Haha.. Mr. Liew tertarik and as the brightest one, he choose me to be the treasurer and keep call me miss yellow eventhought i didnt wear yellow that day. Haish. Mcm2.. Tapi everything okay. I get to be a cockroach sbb easily adapt to this new situation. Yelah, mana pernah dduk asrama mcm nie kan, mana pernah jauh ngan family and friends kan.. So all of this are new experience to me and really2 wish me the best kay?? :)

Simple and Sweet :')

Alhmdulilah.. Im turning 18. Finally.. The day i've been waiting for.. Bukan sbb hadiah je. It's because i got to renew my ic which daddy kata tunggu nnti bila aku cuti. Fine lah. Janji dah 18. Bila2 masa je ley renew kan. The first person yg wish were my bestfriends! Since we did a sleepover, dorng yg wish dulu. And farah bring a cheese cake. So, yeah, dorng yg first.

sleepover @ mai :)

Then, bonda and cousin yg dduk kat langkawi.. My parents, aunty, uncle, cousin and nenek did a small gathering at Rumah Thai. After that kitaorng lepak kt umah nenek. And surprise, there's a cake. They hide it kat dapur nenek. Patutlah.. So, thanks you guys for this surprise.. Mmg xsangka.. I really appreciate it. And for nenek, thanks for the gift. Buat ssh je *blushing

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Kek Pandan.. sedap...

Balik dri umah nenek.. ada lagi.. haha.. This time my parents and adik. Dorng tunggu betul2 kul 12. Cayalah.. I got kises and a few gift.. Wahaa.. I love you guys like so so so much.. More than words. :')

After that, my fon keep ringing... So, thanks to those who wish me through fb and twitter.. Thanks Amalina for the wish and saying 'maintain comel je mcm Rose Dawnson'. Saya terharu! Thanks to Joe for  the wish and xabis2 pnggil aku Najwa latip letup. Huh! Thanks to my twins for the wish and akan hntr hadiah kt KMJ nnti. Yelahtu... Thanks to mai, nadh, farah, nadia and izz for the wish :')


Dalam kegembiraan itu, saya menintiskan air mata.. ceh, ayat.. haha.. but seriously.. this year was the first year i celebrate my birthday without arwah atuk. terasa gak lah kekosongan dia. okay.. xnk ckp lebih.. i think it will rain again.. :'(

Dan dalam kegembiraan itu, saya berharap yg ashraf akan wish saya.. Tapi hampe.. So, mcm redha jelah.. Kul 11.30pm semlm, i got a text from him. Finally.. Haha.. Ingt jugak kau kat aku ek.. He wish and i was like thought you forgot. And he admit that he was forgot actually. Tapi bila tgk fb trus ingt. Yeah, u and the 'forgotten disease'. Saya fhm. Tapi yg saya xphm nyer, he know through fb but he wish me through texting. Wah.. saya terharu lah beb.. Or he did remember but he just want to be the last.. like he use to.. Ahh.. lantaklah.. janji die wish kan.. drpd die xwish, menangis gak.. haha..

So, thanks everyone for the wish.. I really appreciate it and sgt terharu.. :')

Breakup Point

Ok, the breakup point was mai' idea.. Im not stealling it, just borrow only ma... Yelah, lepas nie smue dah jauh2.. Xtau bila lgi dpt hangout, gosip2, gila2 jap.. Seriously, im gonna miss every single thing we did together xspecially lepak and borak2  kt perhimpunan and bench jongkang-jongkit tu. Haish.. smue dah besar.. Hopefully we still gonna stay friends till like ever, till we grew old.. till forver and ever and whenever.. haha..

And hopefully this wasnt our last...

us try the photo booth :)

Nie pengalaman pling kelakar.. Confident je muat smue muka dlm photo booth tu. Screen die mmg besar but bila dah nk start ambik gmbr, kecik lah,. haish sabo jelah.. nie smue muka2 nk squeeze supaya muat lak nie.. rasanya kitaorng pling bising kt situ ohh... tapi best lah.. nk buat lgi kot next time.. seriously! :)

Chill Out :)

I had so much fun just now, hanging out with my besties even ade sedikit lah probs but nevermind. Let hear happy thought only. :)

Pegi pizza hut tdi, izz yg ambik. Thanks izz! We heart you! haha.. Best gila ade driver. He even offer to sent us back but kitaorng like xnk sshkn sgt coz die pun nk jumpa kawn die. Tapi fun lah lepak2 kat pizza hut tu. Then, went to wangsa walk. Mule2 izz xnk but then fkir mcm nk jumpa qaedy so pegi jelah. Kalo x maybe kteorng dah gi festival mall dah kot. Kat wangsa walk, nadh n i do the stalking things. Okay, xnk cte. Sgt private. Not my story anyway. Haha.. So, skip that part.

And for you, eventhought aku ckp xnk cte about bitter things but just let you know, it was nice to meet you kat wwm tadi. We miss you like crazy but this we got from return. Thanks anyway. So nice!

Unplanned sleepover

Hehe.. Just got back from mai's house. Having an awesome time there. Semlm, mle2 just nak hangout kat umah mai je tau. You know, mai kan ske just sat there and chat. So, thats what we going to do. Iyalah, kalo keluar mmg harapan lah nak mcm tu kan. Mesti nak berjalan and shop2. Daa..

Then, tetbe entah mcm  mne, i think mai kot like suggested us to sleep in her house. Before that, we planned to do a sleepover tapi bukan kat umah sape2 tau but kat hotel. Hehe.. yeah, trust me. Mcm byk sgt duit kteorng nie kn? But lantaklah. We never did this before. And bile lgi kot nak buat bnde mcm nie. Lepas dpt result semua dah busy dgn kolej and U. And xtentu lgi dpt tempat belajar yg sme2 kot.

Mle2 sruh mai cal parents die dlu, boleh ke kteorng stay umah die. Then, giliran nad, me, farah n nadia call. Sadly, nadia xdpt approval. So, kteorng pun mcm xjdilah. Beside kan ade plan B. Then, nak kene fkir jlan balik pulak. I mean, kterong xde transport nak balik. Nak tunggu parents mai, lmbt lgi coz dorng sekrng kt gombak. Nak ambik teksi, ade pulak lah teksi kt umah mai tu masalahnya. So, last2 tdo jelh kt umah mai tnpa bawak ape2 baju. Nadia jelah balik, parents die ambik. So, problem solve. yeah.. :)

Malam tu kat umah mai lyn cte Tangle (my all time fav cartoon. smapi dah ley hafal dialog die aku tgk. haha..). Then, tgk cte hantu kt tv3 tu. Time2 tulah mcm2 cte hantu yg nak dicerita. ish2. Dah abis tgk tv, lepak dlm bilik aina. Mai dah mle dah ambik barang2 make up die. Abis smue mke kene make up. Xley blah je. Then, turun ambik ice cream, makan sme2. Pastu baru tdo. Tdo sekatil 5 orng, smue pkai kain batik except aina kot. Bangun dlm kul 9.30. Then, mandi2, breakfast. Mle2 ingt nak balik saing mak mai ambik aina and balqis tapi tetbe nak lyn breaking down, tangguh lah smpai mak mai antar balqis gi sklh agama.

So, mmg xplan pun sleepover nie but thats the best thing about unplan things, sometimes it work. Kteorng mmg dah lme plan nak sleepover sejak sklh rendah lgi kot. Last2 lepas spm baru dpt. Alhamdulilah. Nnti ble nadh tunang or kahwin, kterong serang rumah u lak ek? hehe.. :)

its over! Alhamdulilah!

Alhamdulilah.. The suffering has come to an end. Suffer ke masalah nya?? Haha.. Suffer lah gak sebernarnya.. Sket!

Anyway, i try my best on this exam and hopefully the lick in on my side. So, goodbye my 9boyfriends.Goodbye school. And i am seriously going to miss you. A lot! Muah3...

So, thanks for the wish... you guys.. i appreciate it...

MAISARAH

JOE

NADH

FARAH

NADIA

IZZ

SYAMIM

Hari Graduasi

Hari graduasi. Saya dah grad! Haha.. Yeah, almost. After SPM was finish.

Hari graduasi was the day special only for form 5 student. It was to appreciate them for 5years study kat sklh tu. Tapi kan kalo student yang xckup 5tahun study kat sklh tu patutnya xley lah kn?? Haha.. Soalan bodoh. Jangan lyn. Anyway, hari graduasi tdi mmg rmai gle bdk f5 xgi sklh. Gila best lah kt cikgu coz dorng xyah penat2 mengajar kn.. Kteorng tolong cikgu tu.. Hehe..

And serious xsangka dpt dudk sebelah farah. I mean, i thought i'm going to be alil' bit far from her but no. Harap mase ambik result spm pun, i'll be standing next to you farah. Haha.. Kteorng terpisah ngan mai and nad je. Tpi sebaik time makan dpt makan sme2..

It just me!  ;))

The 5AB's family minus those VIP kay..

The 5AB's girls.. Korang smue cantik! ;)

nad xde dlm pic! ;(

Anyway, hari graduasi was awesome. I wish i could do it one more again. Seriously!

And i cant belive this but i hav eto admit, i am gonna miss my school and my classmate so very much. Lepas 5 or 10 years, kte bwat reunion kay??.. Hehe..

Its just nice

Ok, hari nie final trial exam. Finally! The stress is over! Opss.. Wait, there still more. SPM! That one xlepas lgi. Last tdi physic paper and i really, really dont want to talk about it. I mean it!

So, hari nie kteorng hangout kt WWM je but somehow it was a very nice hangout. Dpt jumpa Izz, my bestguyfriend. Lme gle xjumpa die. Last jumpa pun mase form3. Lme gle kn?? Dlu die laen mse form3 tulh but now, he just the same old Izz i know mse form2. Mle2 tu mmg x expect die nk dtg. Kteorng dgn beli subway and time aku nk keluar nagn mai nk mkn kt luar, i saw this particular guy mcm kenal. Haha.. Mmg kenal pun sebernarnya. Izz rupanya! Mmg excited gle. Then, kteorng story2... Pastu lepak kt Tutti Frutti. Mmg best gle! Expecially red velvet. Gosh, ckp psl bnde nie make me craving for more. Ble nk pegi lgi ek??  Hehe.. Then, lepak, round2.. Taking a few pictures smpai kul 5, die hantar kteorng gi wayang, then die teman mai balik and die balik. Xtau npe, ayat nie rse mcm pelik. Tpi lantaklah. Kisah lah pulak aku masalahnya. Btw, kteorng tgk ABDUCTION! Cte die oklah, put more action, i think i will be much better. Tpi pape pun, dpt tgk Taylor Lutner! Hehe... My boy tu...

mai,me,izz,nad

farah,nad,me,mai

mai,nad,izz,farah,me

Hoping to have this kinda day again next time! Megat, make sure you okay next time kay!. haha.

Note to Izz : Thanks for this day. We had fun hangout with you. Hoping to have this kinda day again. And Izz, please stay the same, a bit change was okay. Get it? ;))