How to Deal with Losing Friends

I just talked about this with someone (i think) , like a few days ago. And look! Anna Akana just post about dealing with losing friend. Wow.

Rescuing

So, i was so bored and browse into youtube. Yeah, my life was pretty bored this past few weeks sbb xbyk assignment kot and kalo ada pun, im to lazy.. haha.. i am a fan of yuna. so, ble nmpk ada lgu or vid dia yg baru, mesti ah tgk kn.. so i listen to rescue song and i love it. i mean it was something i need it when i lose hope on life somehow. okay, mcm laen mcm je ayat tu. nevermind.

Like i say in  my previous post, i will be okay. and after listen to this song, i was better.

Like the lyrics, i do feel alone sometime. i feel like i wanna talk to someone but when i had, i just didnt feel like it. i just maybe need someone to be there only. they not necessary need to hear my story. I need to listen any crap they say and laugh out loud. so that i could forget what ever bad things in my life for a bit.

And i know that i always took granted on things and people. The things is i always thought they wont leave especially those who have been with me long enough that i put lots of trust and hope. Just like the girls.. just like joe.. i know my girl wont leave. you wont leave me right? haha.. you guys like a sister to me. i love you guys a lot. and joe... thanks for once being there for me.

I think lately nie i just love being alone. I feel like mai.. haha.. sorry mai.. no, i got friends in most class im in. i meet new people, making new friends. but sometime it feel good to be alone. like when i had different class with my roomate so i had to go alone. and somehow it feel really good. like i was spend time with me. and i really did kiss my fears goodbye. i mean, dlu i xske be alone. like i couldnt be alone. i need someone to company me. i feel weird everytime i be alone. everybody watching. it is not a best feeling. but now, i didnt care. i love being alone. im and independent babeh.. haha..

so yeah, i will be okay. i dont need rescuing. i'll be okay. :)

INSPIRATION

So, i was doing nothing. I was bored and lonely and just bored. I got no assignment yet so i kinda like do nothing for now. All i do is sleep, read a book, watching youtube, listen to some son, dream and dream.. i felt like a loser! haha.. but anyway, as i was scrolling the youtube. figuring what to watch. btw, i found cougar town season 1. yeah, im pathetic. i bet you guys already found it and i just had to be today. haha.. funny story. okay2.  as i was doing that, i found this video and i couldnt stop watching it. i watch it like all of her video. and somehow it get me inspiration and motivate me i guess. but more to inspiration. if you guys already know her, just pretend like you know her after i post it. hehe.. well, these are some.

 

True love.. since i got messed up with 'somone' and i know i say i dont wanna fall in love. but i definetely will search and waitand wont give coz like anna said, it all be worthy.. it just takes time and effort. and i met someone eventually but just not now. or maybe i did already. maybe it was that guy who give me a ride the other day. maybe... haha.. just kidding.. he just try to be nice. lets think that way..

yeah joe.. i cant read mind. im outta here.. wait.. since when it gotta be all about him.? hmm.. i should literally stop. this is when im starting to miss but i want to move on. yep, it feels like the situation with ashraf all over again haiya!

yep. im gonna killing with fire. but first i wanted to unfriend you. you ruin my timeline man! you didnt reply any of my text but you update your status. what?! this is bullshit

 

im gonna trying to be alone. i mean im try to figuring me out right? i spend time with ME! hehe.. :) challenge accepted! LOL!

Malaysia Malaysians

So, this is movie made by Cik Syahirah Aisyah kita.. I lov eit girl. Just a keep up a good work and next time insyallah if you need anything, just tell me kay darling :)

The Positive View

The past is the past and i couldnt change it. Eventhough i wanted to but it was beyond my will. So, i accept it and took it as a lesson so in the future i wont do it again. So, that in the future i would be a better person. Insyallah. I dont know what posses me on the last post. I guess the old past haunted me. Uuuu ( make it a ghost sound). Hahaha,, But im okay now. Im feeling fine actually. Standard lah kan if we miss someone or something in the past. And i do got that feeling sometime tapi xdelah seteruk mcm haritu. Yep, something do posses me that time. Haha.. The 25th curse.

Okay, enough with that. So, actually i got nothing to say but i feel want to say something. What is it ek? That guy? Hmm.. nothing much. Just the fact that i less my stalking attitude coz i know i scared the heck of him. Hahaha.. I am so freak and weird..

Anyway, dah ingt balik.. Looking ng on the bright side. Things happen for a reason. Maybe everything yg happen nie nak show yg me and ashraf just not meant together or that just a test if we were strong as a couple or not, and every mistake is a lesson for life. Yep. Think positive nasuha.

So, i guess, this song fits the most. I mean, i terbaca yg this song mcm a postive view of a alread-breakup-relationship. Tu yg dia ckp lah.. But i guess, maybe betul kot...

In My Sleep

Why i post this song? Other than the fact that this song is awesome is that the words really show how i felt right now towards you.. Yeah, you.. 

I want to meet you!

I keep playing this song over and over again in my phone. And when i play this song, my mind keep imagine like this lyric about you... You, wherever you are, i want you to know that i wait for you here okay?? Just hurry up and come... :)

The one that get away

Today rase malas nk tulis ape2. So, i let the music and lyric tells ya what i felt, what i want and what i think somehow. Between you and me 'a'

Dont you remember?

Somehow, this song fits on the story of you and me.. And i cant stop replay it over and over again...

the lazy song

Mid-year exam dh abis.. yay! finally! hehe.. and the holiday just started.. yeah, its true i got plenty of things i want to do this holiday but somehow none of them was spending with my 9 beloved boyfriends a.k.a BOOKS! hehe.. the big exam is near, i felt scared of course. nervous at the same time actually.. tpi enthlh.. somehow.. mmod tu xde lgi.. mcm Pn. Norlia ckp 'perasaan xsampai.'. hehe.. but it is true..

xpe2, after abis cuti nie, i promise i be much more tougher and struggle. just this time, i want to have a break, having my ME! time.. and i dont feel like doing anything. NOTHING AT ALL..

so, i dedicate the lazy song to me! ;)

i subscribed them

yep! this two young guy are so talented! (+ they kinda good looking too *wink) so, i've been subscribed them. haha.. yep, video dornglh yg i kept playing especially the funny one. n video dornglh yg i kept seeing it every week coz dorng akan upload ever week kn.. smpai my parents + bro speechless tgk aku addicted ngan video dorng nie..

oh, lgi satu.. ari tu, otw nk gi lepak kedai mamak (rutin biasa with my family every weekdays), aku bkk video dorng. then, tgh lyn2, tetbe my mom sruh aku ambik something bout english education, i mean A- level kot for bdk yg nk blajar overseas. she even ask me to go British Council lpas abis SPM nnti. Mom, ble masa lak akak nk ambik driving lesson + guitar lesson + cooking n baking lesson?? Jwb2... aigoo..

oh-before-i-forgot, she love hear anwar hadi speaking.. so british.. well, something like thatlh.. haha.. fine lh mom...

a) IniAnwarHadi



b) matluthfi90

Love this video!

Haha.. sumph lawak kot video nie.. Plus, die sgt comel.. *wink2.. haha.. ;P