Good conversation and a coffee

I dont know why but i got caught up with the thought of having a conversation and a coffee in a coffee shop. It doesnt have to be deeper or anything. It just a conversation. Any kind of it. I do know coffee was bad for health but whatever. Even if its not a coffee. There are drinks and foods around. Suddenly video begin again start to play around my head. And eventhough it involve a guy and a girl in a coffee shop having a conversation by the window.

           

Mine wasnt like that.
Eventhough i do hope someday i met this kind of situation. Yep someday.

Okay dh terlari dari tajuk. Huehuehue.

I think good conversation come with good food. I mean imagine if you meeting a friend or someone special, eventhough the main reason you went out together is to meet up and shopping or whatever. But somehow when you sit down, order some food. Thats when a conversation pop out. A very good one indeed. We starterd to catch up where we left out or sharing some interest, getting to know each other or something.

Mcm i slalu kluar jumpa ngan the girls everytime smue free and smue tgh cuti. Wlaupun kdg2 tu time tu lh sorng nk cari baju raya, sorng nk cari apatah, but somehow we always end up with good conversation and good food. Alhamdulilah. Dri dlu plan nk gi FRIM. I think sejak matriks lgi kot. Correct me if i was wrong. Last2 dpt gak gi on the very last of my cuti semester. Awal buln 9 aritu. Plan dia nk gi canopy walk tpi rmai gle. So tiket dh abis. So we end up picnic dkt air terjun. But it was fine. We had a great time. Yg penting, the bonding and the conversation and the food. Haha.

And then blik dri fieldwork aritu, dpt lah date ngan ooi n dila. Different people, different time. Date dgn ooi lh pling lama. Oder pizza then lepak dlm bilik dia almost kul 1pagi gak lh baru blik. Dgn ooi mcm2 nk cte. Sbb dia nie talkactive. Eventhough we both dont know much about each other. But somehow there are something to talk to. Always. Ngan dila lak, lunch date. Xpuas. Serious. Rasa masa tu kejap sgt. Wlaupun tmpt mkn yg dia bwak i tu, nasi kukus dia mmg sedap gle. Nnti nk mai mkn situ lgi.  I rasa mcm byk lagi xcatch up kot. Xpe2. Nnti movie date kte abiskn masa puas2. Hehe..

Then, my classmate dri last week ajak i gi mkn. Yep, dorng nie agaknya proses nk mengemukkn i kot. Haha. Then semlm dorng dh ajak awal2 so i pun dh simpan perutlh. I ingt dorng nk bwak i mkn kt ktm yg dorng ckp aritu. Rupa2nya nandos kt alamanda. Ada abg zairi, 3 year dgn baik ati bwak kteorng. Xdelh borak sakan. Most of it abg zairi cte psl prof lah n some of aktiviti yg ada kene mengene ngan course kterong. Tpi best lah gak dgr pengalaman orng smue tu. Cme alamanda ttup awal sgtlh. Kul 10 dh start kemas2. I rasa kalo jj smue tu around 11 kot. Xpelah. Janji perut kenyang wei.

Tpi serious i rindu masa lepak ngan the girls kt starbuck. Borak2 smue. Tpi apakah daya. Starbuck dh kene banned. Huhu.. Xpe2. Kte cari coffee shop yg baru naaa...

But honestly, i would love to meet my other half at coffee shop. Aaaaa.. feeling2 gitu. Haha..

Till again :)

What a surprise.

So, suddenly this guy yg i pernah ada crush kat dia time2 nk spm tu just tegur i kat fb. What a surprise? I mean, yelah sape sangka, he still remember me. Haha..

Dulu, add dia kat fb pun sbb i crush kat dia and i tegur. Yep, i make the first move this time. Xpernah tegur kat sklh tapi kt fb i tegur dia. Xke pelik tu and im being obvious and i didnt care. Tapi nie out of blue dia tegur. I am honor. Felling tu dah lama ilang and like he say an old friend. Tu lagi bangga lah sbb mmg xpernah berckp pun. tegur kat fb je. so, when he call me an old friend, i smile. :)

Tu satu, then ashraf pun tetbe tegur i kat twitter. Saying dah lama xkacau i. Yeah, agaklah. I wish dia pape pun just like wish jelah. Dia balas and thats it. I xde nk tokok tambah lebih. Sometimes i do miss him tapi xpernah rasa nk tegur dia or text dia or anything. A strange feeling.

Life.. it so strange sometime. Anyway ive make mind already and i never been this sure. And i wont change it like i used to to it. I follow my heart and instinct this time. And i trust it. i trust it and i will go for it. So, wish me luck whatever it is.. :)

Promises, awaiting.

Im sorry.. i khilaf.. i didnt mean to cheat this feeling.. but im surely know what i want this time. And what my heart been longing for all this time. YOU!

Yeah, present of you. I know you wont came this around the corner. But im willing to wait as i promise. But please hurried up coz i surely miss you so much. I want to meet you and do those things i had on my mind.

I willing to wait for you a thousand years.. ececeh.. well, not that long actually since i didnt know when Allah will take my soul. Maybe tomorrow, the next day or the day after. But no matter what, i know i will wait for you like edward cullen waited for bella swan.

My heart is for you and you are my very last one. Insyallah. And im gonna keep this heart of mine just for you, whoever you might be. :)

We see...

Im not sure how i felt right now. Deep down inside me. But sure it was what we call kinda a crush. I got confused with yours and mine. Sometime i feel like all ur attention was directly to me but then on the second it was like you the friendly type. And than, there was me, who was so uncomfortable of the way you treat me, but miss it when you just stood there silently.. 

But for sure i never could run away  from you as long as i was here. Sitting everywhere in class, i always end up grouping with you. 

Im not gonna hoping to much. Im very much will stay here and see.  And just follow wherever this story lead me. I go with the flow like i used to with the help of my heart. :)

I have decide

Finally.. the moment of true.. aku harap aku xkan ragu2 lagi or was2 lgi lah. insyallah..

Aku dah decide dah... ape yg aku nak.. and yeah, it was part of my parents punter choice but i think they know the best for me kan?? 

Okay2.. i think i want to be dentist.. there, i said it! A dentist... insyallah bley.. yg penting ikhlas dan bersungguh2..

Okahlah, tu je nk ckp.. hehe.. bubye... have a nice day readers.. :)

Love at first sight..

Sebenar-benarnya xnk pun post psl mamat nie.. but for my bestfriend, cik farah kte. oklah, saya post ye. I planning to keep secret about this guy actually wlaupun kdg2 ade gak twitter and blog. Xsengaja kay.. I know there shouldnt be any secret between us tapi... well.. you know...  

We all have that one crush not even our best friends know about. ♥

Okay farah, this one is for you...

I had a huge crush on this guy. It happen a week before SPM. Caya x?? Aku sendiri pun xcaye. I mean, come on. A week before SPM? Nape x sebelum2 nie? Anyway, aku bwat research lah kn.. (biasalah, kalo kte ske seseorng, mesti kte nk find out all about him kn? Same goes to our enemy btw). Mamat nie baru masuk sklh aku awal tahun nie gaklh. Dlu sklh SMK Seri Pagi... Xtau kt pelosok dunia mana tah. Name pun pelik tapi betul lah.. seri pagi so muka pun berseri2.. patutlah aku tertaril. LOL! Die nie lahir sme bulan ngan aku cme tarikh je lah xsme. Aku 20 may, die 9 may. Teringt kt ashraf. haha.. Hobi die maen bowling... okay.. teringat kt asyari lak.. mamat nie byk link ngan ex aku lah. Email die lak... eh, xley bgitau... senang lh kn nak cari nnti... xley2... Btw, die xsme kelas ngan aku, kelas die sebelah aku. Farah, memandang knkelas kte tgh2, pndai2 lah u teka ek? Lgi satu, die nie mcm invisible sketlah. Xrmai yg perasan die, termasuk aku. Byk kn a week before SPM baru perasan then terus ske. Adoy.. Cte die mcm nie, mase tuk majlis persaraan guru besar kteorng, so kteorng dduk kt dewan n boys n girls split. Mase aku toleh belakang nk ckp dgn amalina, aku rse mcm ade orng pdg aku (perasan je kot.. :p). Aku pun pndang. Kteorng ade lah gak pndang each other for a few second (teringt cte sleepless in seattle pulak.) Mse mule2 tu rase biasa2 je.. Tapi lepas tu, die mcm xley lupa tau.. asyik ingt je.. kteorng ade lah gak terserempat a few times, and all we did is staring. Mne x angau nye aku.. hehe..

Thats all for now.. tetbe nak post pun sebab tetbe die blas text aku. lme tunggu nie tau.. haha..

Strangers that i love

Seriously! Who are you? I am pretty sure i dont know you at all. But you been bugging in my head 24/7! Who are you actually? Cause seriously i want to meet you. I want to know everything about you. You make me feel the things that i quite forgot somehow. And you remind me about those stuff. Eveytime i daydream, you were there somehow on the back of my mind. And as hard as i want to forget about you. It seems hard coz you somehow a part of my life. Eveytime i thought of you, you make me singing all those love songs. And bring back my smile and joy. Thanks stranger. I wish i could meet you someday. And who knew, things might work out and it'll be more. Haha.. I know i imaging stupid thing but hey. who know right? ;) 

When I Grew Up

Yeah, when i grew up... Nope, it was not like lgu pussycat doll tu coz die tahu ape die nk jdi ble die gre up nnti. But me, i'm opposite than that. Seriously, aku jeles tgk orng yg dh tahu ape yg die nk jdi ble die dh besar nnti (xtcampur ngan bdk2 bwah darjah3 ye).

Time aku kecil2 dulu, aku ingat nk jdi cikgu. Mcm best je. Ble hari guru je, dpt hadiah. Bestnya. Tpi ble dh besar, aku nie rupa2nya xreti ajar orng. Xde kesbran yg tinggi. Krng bdk tu xphm, aku bwat derk je. And aku nie mmg ske bwat formula sendiri mcm farah n mai slalu ckp. Hehe..

Time aku kecil2 dulu. aku ingt nk jdi doktor. Ble save orng nyer life. Byk pahala tu. Tpi ble dh besar, aku baru realize yg aku nie takut darah and bnde2 dlm bnda kita nie. Tgk orng accident smpai luka teruk pun, aku dh mcm rse laen je. Aku xmuntah, cme rse xselesa kt dlm perut nie. Abah kata nk muntah tu tpi bdan awk kebal sbb tu xmuntah2. Ok, finelah.

Time aku kecil2 dulu, aku ingat nk jdi penyanyi. Hey, best tu. Masyuk gak kot. Famous lak tu. Sape xnk kn? Tpi ble dh besar, suara aku nie rupa2 nya xsedap. Aduh! Nie smue sbb gi karaoke lah. Kalo x, mesti xtau kn?? Hehe..  Tpi walaupun suara xsedap, karaoke ttap pegi.

Time aku kecil2 dulu, aku ingat nk jdi editor mag. Nie smue sbb aku ske beli 17mag. Ske tgk gmbr die yg comel2 n colourful tu. Tpi ble dh besar, aku dh lpe psl bnde nie. Tpi aku stil beli kot 17mag tu. Enthlh. Mcm mne tah ley lpe.

Time aku kecil2 dulu, aku ingat nk jdi penulis novel. Dulu aku suke bce buku2 cerita nie. Smpai sekrang pun. Tpi ble dh besar, die nie pun xmsuk dlm list aku. Xtau lah npe. Maybe coz aku nie xlah pndai cerita sgt kn. Cbe tgk karangan aku. Enth ape aku merepek pun xtau.

Time aku kecil2 dulu, aku ingat nk jdi pelukis. Yelh, dulu kn kte lukis smue comel2. Tpi ble dh besar, aku bru sedar yg tngan aku nie mcm kayu. Tgk lukisan aku pun mcm bdk drjh which mmg comel tpi ble jual ley ke dpt untung? Len lah tngan mcm megat tu. Ish, nk tukar tngan ngan die lah.. haha..

Time aku kecil2 dulu, aku ingt nk jdi successful businesswomen. Nie smue gara2 infuence dgn aisyah. Die mmg dri dulu nk jdi business women smpai lah sekrng. Tpi ble aku dh besar, it was still a dream but hardly to come tru coz both of my parents xencourage aku. Hmm..

Ble dh penat sgt fikir, aku ingt nk jdi suri rumah jelh. Xdelah byk sgt nk fikir. Just kne fikir ape yg nk masak jelh. Tpi yg len tu, rsenya ok kot. Beside, everything is under my control.. Huahua (evil laugh). Tpi Pn. Norliah ckp, kte as a women nie kne gak keje. Nnti ble husband kte run away or pass away, at least kte independence sket. My mom pun ckp mcm tu. Which i think was true!

Emm.. enthlah. Maybe aku ley jdi dentist kot which my parents mmg encourage i pursuit it. Lgi pun dentist xinvole byk drah tpi gross thing maybe. But i think i could handle it. Jdi composer pun okey gak kn. Mcm nadia ckp. Dpt byk dulit gak. Hehe.. But somehow business is always my top priority eventhough my parents xencourage i ambil. Xpe business, ble my future husband sruh i stop keje, i might akn ambik you. Nnti i pujuk lh die ye.. (aish! dh start bearangan blik..).. ;))

Trial of SPM nie penting!

Hari nie habis, no, trial xabis lgi ye. Its just that aku dh face 4subjek eventhought some of it i know i didnt do that well. Tpi at least i try ok. I try my best. Yang habis nya is that minggu nie. Hehe.. People always told me that trial SPM nie penting. Smuenya kne tgk dri trial, nk msuk U lh or whatsoever. Masa time PMR dulu pun penting tpi aku buat derk je. Haha.. That's explain why i didnt get into that boarding school. Haih, nevermind. Everything happen for a reason and it sure did! One of my cousin yg thun lepas SPM, he didnt get a good result in his SPM result but because of his trials yg hebatlh, die dapat masuk U yg bagus. Aku pun pelik. Bukan orng yg bgus trial akn lebih bgus dlm SPM dia ke?? Enthlh, maybe time tu die ada probs kot sbb tu xdpt fokus or kementerian tu yg ada problems?? Hey, it usually happen kay.. Ok, disebabkn orng ckp trial tu sgt2 penting, i just did a bet with my parents. Selalunya aku akan buat masa exam yg penting mcm SPM but not this time. I change my strategies. So, aku kne dpt at least 8A or 9A for this trial to get that guitar i want so bad. Yelh, aku je yg xde guitar. Bdk kampung pun ade tau. Finelah! Dulu bukan minat sangat pn. Enth, tetbe je. Nope, it has nothing to do with Yuna or Najwa Latif or Taylor Swift kay... It just since aku nk jdi rockstar, geng ngan Joe. Buat group which we already had. Yeah, one of my dreams. Many did know that i love making songs. Dont get me wrong. I dont want to be famous like Yuna. I just want to be a very talented song-writer. Masa dulu, aku ada cite bende nie kat Nadia. Pelik. Aku xcte kt twin aku psl nie. Hehe.. S-O-R-R-Y-! Anyway, Nadia pernah sruh aku jdi song-writer nnti since i quite talented on that *blushing. Then, Nadia ley add, jdi song-writer tu dpt byk duit gak kot walaupun die xnyanyi. And i was, Nadia. Its not just about money kay. Haha.. Tpi entahllh.. It just a hobby mcm orng jdikan photography as a hobby tpi saya x coz i'm not really good at taking picture. But i am better when i'm in that picture. Haha.. ;D Btw, thanks angah, aisyah and joe for wishing me gudluck. I try do my best! Fighting2! I heart you guys!

Son/Daughter in law

There's a beep sound on my phone showing that a texting just came in. Before this happen, i felt quite uncomfortable, then i started to make lots of assuming, termasuk kononnya Ashraf akan text aku (yeah right!). So, the texting was from Joe. Emm.. xdelh hampa sgt sebernarnya. He ask me if aku dh blik KL. And i said yes and apologize for not raya kt rumah dia. And he was like, its okay. ble nk hangout. Tetbe rse laen mcm lak ble die tnye mcm tu. I know it sound simple but he never ask me that before. Selalunya Ahsraf yg akan tnya. Aik, nk ganti tempat Ashraf dh ke. Weird! Tpi aku lyn jelh. Then, enth mcm mne, he told me that mak die tnye psl aku. Haha... Mak die tnye psl aku! Haha.. Yeah, i sound excited but it was more to terharu actually. Then, i dont know why i did it but i did it. Aku gi ckp, 'wah, ni ley jadi menantu pilihan nie. Aduh! What??? Tpi aku xrse segan pn. Xtau npe. It was like ada voice ckp yg aku kne dpt mamat nie even dgn kuasa realpolotik. Haha.. Xdelh. Mcm mne sej ley msuk nie?? Hehe.. Anyway, die ckp, 'die xtau. kne tnye mak die. agaklh'. Agaklh??? What that suppose to mean? Ada peluang ke??? Haha..Then, aku lak ley ckp yg parents aku tnye psl die. Which was true okay. My parents did ask about him mase dlm keta otw blik kampung. Ingat tu! Yelah, tetbe je. They ask me everything about him. His studies, his course, his mom, his dad and his sibling. See, i told you it was EVERYTHING! After answering all their question, it got my thought. My parents dh tukar menantu pilihan ke?? Seriously, before this, the only thing the ask is Amir Izzudin. Even between my guys friends, dorng lebih kenal Amir Izzudin selain qaedy and megat. Amir yg dduk kt Seksyen5 tu dorng ley kenal tpi amir yahya yg dudk 2/3 tapak dri rumah aku, dorng buat2 xkenal je. Nmpk sgt amir I tu menantu pilihan. Sikit2 tnya psl die. Ble nk dtg raya rumah lh n whatsoever. Mmg tiap2 tahun akan ditanya mcm tulh. Dh ley hafal dh soalan die n jawapan aku. Nie smue gara2 dia kasi nasi lemak free kt atuk aku mse kteorng couple dlu. Aduh, buat malu aku je. Then, tetbe time nie, dorng tnye psl Joe. Aik, dh tukar menantu pilihan ke mummy and daddy?? ;p Haha.. I told Joe about this and he was shy n blushing lh kot. Tpi yg xley blah die tetbe je bersemangat nk dtg raya rumah aku. And i was like, 'nie xde kene mengena nagn menantu pilihan tdi kn?'. And he was like, ada, ada sgt.... WHAT???

Ok, it make me go uuuuuu like i was up in the sky. 

It make me had buterfly in my tummy which was so uncomfortable. 

It got me daydreaming. A LOT! 

It got me feel the things i didnt feel quite long. 

The feeling that i had mse Ashraf hold my had. Weird!

Joe didnt hold my hand nor touch me but i felt that. Haha.. 

It got me all excited and yeah, i think i'm in love. 

Well, at least that's what i thought. ;)

i mean it...

I've been living in my fairytale.. hehe.. JOKING! But somehow i am still believe taht one fine day, my prince charming will come into my life and well, i am not going to say 'they lived happily ever after'. But somehow i am hoping it turn out the way.. hehe.. ;)

Ok2, the whole story is i am waiting for my PC.. No, it is not PC the laptop. It was PC the charming. hehe. :D I've been create him in my head somehow. hehe. ye, gle! well, i am not imagine his outside but his inside..

I was imagine and listed the type of guy i want or what PC must have actually.. As i was imagine it, compared it and example it.. it was all somehow lead me to YOU! Yeah, you!

You always acted romantic to me tpi xlh smpai ke jiway. eventhought sometime u ske beri i ayat2 yg i sendiri xphm. i mean, ayat yg mcm sindiran and puisi gitulh. and you always make laugh about the jokes you make eventhought sometime it wasnt that funny, but somehow i still laugh at it. i hate to admit this but i really thought u were like me. just a kid that came from a simple and sederhana. but i was wrong. when i first came into you house, i admit i was surprise. kau kaya rupanya. npe kau xprnh bgitau ek? i am not saying i am some kind of pisau cukur. i pn actually hate rich people coz yelh, dorng mostly a spoil brat rich kid. contohnya mcm muiz. gosh, perangai mcm nk kne baling kuali kt rumah aku je kot. berlagak nk mampus! ble ssh bru cri aku. pastu mintak tolong xmunasabah lngsung! F##K gle ah die tu!! tpi u laen. u never brag about it. u always stay low-profile. and thats why i like to be friend with you. i love when you pick a fight with me and sometime arah aku. well, let just say that i've been watching Boys Over Flower a lot till i somehow wish Junpyo character had in PC. you a very simple person. you always there for me whenever i need you. u had been a good listener for me for 5years. and you give me strength when ashraf dump me. i still remember that time when ashraf told me that i was crying when he left me. it got my thought coz how would he know? he was not there. you the one who see and hear me cry. i noe i might looks stupid that time. i mean cry for a guy. but u never thought that way. instead you advise me. you told me to cry sepuas2nya. and i did. yes i did. i follow you and somehow i always remember that advise of yours. most of all, i felt comfortable when im around you and you make me feel like i want to know bout you more and more eventhought i know most thing about you. i mean, come on, we share lots of thing together. we know we both hate and love. i felt so special when im with you. i mean it.

haha.. xcye aku tulis byk nie psl kau je? psl PC aku. haha.. i know my PC will be somehow i dont know or i may know. i try not to hope you be my PC but somehow deep down inside me i want you to be my PC. and i really2 mean what i say.

Just another dream

Haha.. Xley blah je mimpi aku semlm dowh.. But still it make me smile till now.. haha.. Looks like i'm fall in love again.. Haha.. I guess.. Well, aku mimpi psl this 3guys yg mmg aku knl sgt n 2 of them are very close to me. Tpi dorng nie muncul dlm mimpi aku mcm ambik no. je. yelh, mne xnya, sorng2 muncul kot. Mle2 tu ashraf muncul. Aku pn xtau mcm mne die ley lak sesat dlm mimpi aku. Masuk nie dh 2 kali die muncul tpi due2 tu aku ambik xkisah je. Yelh bkn penting pn. It just a dream. N lgipn dlm mimpi aku semlm die muncul kejap je so aku xah bape ingt sgt. Hehe.. Tpi yg 2nd guy nie mmg xley blah. Setelah sekian lame xmuncul tetbe ley lak.. Haha.. Aku mimpi joe semlm. Xley blah kn?? Haha.. Tpi yeah i see him with that face and that hair and that smile. Gosh, die mmg hot tpi npe ble die ckp something about his appearance, aku mesti deny it. Haha.. Xdpt terime kenyataan ah tu. Dlm mimpi semlm, aku nmpk die kt beach. And ade banner kat situ with his picture in it. Banner ape?? Aku pn xtau. Enth2 banner die kahwin kot.. Haha.. Yelh, kn sekrng orng ske ltak banner. Tpi in my weds, that never going to happen k! Tpi joe, kalo kau nk kahwin, inform aku awl so that aku ley buang perasaan sengal aku kat kau nie, faham?? N beside, i dont want to miss my bestfriend's wed right... Ok, orng ke3 is faris si annoying tu. Aku pn xtau mcm mne die ley sesat dlm mimpi aku. Tpi die pn muncul kejap je. Hehe.. Aku ingt aku jumpe die kt train n die pkai bju itam fav die tu. Fav ke?? Haha.. AKu main agak je lgipn.. Tpikn aku rse aku mimpi joe maybe coz i miss him kot. Yelh, dh lme gle xtext n gduh2 ngan die. Rindu gle thap gaban beb! Xpe2.. krng2 aku text die. Hehe.. Aku xtau npe sjak mimpi tu kn, aku asyik fkir die je.. N ble aku tingt mse aku dtg umah die raya ari 2, n die tsenyum kt aku, die pndang aku, pergh, cair dowh ati aku. n yeah, it make me smile. haha.. tpi aku xley lh ske die blik. He was my bestfriend n die pn dh ade gf. Well, almost but i think he would get it. Sape xcair tgk joe?? haha.. But yeah, i smile a lot when i thought of him.. Pelik kn?? Aku sudh jatuh cinta blik ke?? Haha.. enth ah.. N even if i wish we were meant to be together.. I just know that we wont coz my heart to me so. Tpi xpelh, jodoh jdi kwn pn ok gak kn?? Kn?? haha.. enth ah.. Tpi ble aku dpt tau die ade gf kn, aku mesti mcm xkisah. Cbe kalo ade orng gak ske die, jealous nk mampus! Haha.. Pelik mmg pelik.. Tpi 2lh aku ble i'm really fall in love.. haha.. ;p

Enjoy!

Fuhh!! Penat gle thap cipan dowh! Mne xnya bz gle aku bebrpe ari yg lpas. Esk dh ah kne gi sklh. Ikut kn ati nk je aku ponteng tpi sbb nk antr buku nyer psl so have to lh. Huhu.. Tpikn penat mcm ne pn, aku masih sempat on9, updating blog. Kire terer ah kn. Haha.. Ala, xde ah penat sgt. Aku tolong pn biasa2 je ah. Tpi janji aku tlg. Drp makhluk2 tuhan yg laen yg xtlg tu kn?? Haha... Sape mkn tomato, die rse masam. Aku mmg dh lme xmkn tomato. So, xde ah rse masam nyer. Aku blik kmpung ari2. Mak cik sedare aku kahwin. The wedding was ok. Perfect for her. But for me?? I dont noe. I didnt hve my ideal wed yet. I didnt imagine it anymore. I use to have it but it all gone when he is gone. So, sekrng nie otak masih xdpt berfungsi. Tpi ari2 ade ah aku, farah n mai imagine our wed. Dh planning kot. Tpi the groom is just not arrive yet. Speaking about guy.. Aku rse mcm aku dh kurng interest nk usha2 dh kot. Huhu. Pelik teramat sgt. Tpi biarlh. It all might end when i'm turn 18. Yep! 18! Dh jdi mcm fav number aku lh pulak. Haha.. Tpi kn kt wed tu kn, aku tgk rmai lh bf2 n gf2 mereka menolong. And it makes me wonder, if ashraf was here, he would probally helping me too.. But wait he is not here. Not anymore. And if its like i want him back?? haha.. No way you coming again. I will preventing it ok. And aku telah mengenjoy kn diri dgn berkaraoke n melynlgu jiwa2 gitu. Haha.. Mmg bukan evergreen ah tu. Tpi enth, aku dh xambik peduli lgi dh coz i just want to enjoy this life and do the things i didnt do it yet. Haha.. weird. but thats the new me... haha... =))

Teringat!! hehe.... =p

Ok2.. bnde nie agak funny n xley balh lngsung.. yelh, mcm mne aku ley ingt kt due mamat yg aku t'jumpa kt shopping mall nie kn?? kn?? xprnh2 pn.. Selama nie kalo aku usha pn, ari2 je ingt, lme2 dh lpe. Nie due orng nie aku masih ingt smpai sekrng. Mule blur sketlh. Tpi ley lh gak. Ok2... Meh sni aku cte psl 2 orng mamat nie yg muncul dlm idup aku tok bape minit tapi singgah dlm otak aku sekali sekala..

The 1st guy..

Aku jumpe die kt jj. Mse 2 aku tgh kluar ngan twin aku. Aku nk cri baju untuk jamuan nnti. hehe.. Ala, bkn nk fancy sgt tpi saje. Nk nmpk comel xslh kn?? hehe.. Anyway, tgh sibuk jln2, tetbe tserempak ngan this guy ngan kwn die. Die senyum2 pndng kteorng. Ok fine. Aku pn mcm 2. Then, aku ingt aku jumpe die mase 2 jelh. Tpi dh nama pn jj mestilh akn jumpe die smpai die or aku blah. Yelh, pusing sana, pusing sini. Ala, korng2 paham2 jelh. Aku gelar die, 'guy with green shirt n a vest' n die mmg bwat aku angau.. haha.. aku lukis gmbr baju die tpi muka.. em, tngan aku mcm kayu ble bab2 mcm 2. hehe.. aku pn xtau mcm mne die ley lekat dlm memori aku tpi aku bhrp sgt satu hari aku akn jumpe die. yeah, one day.. n please pkai bju 2 ye n hairstyle still remain k.. demanding tol mak cik nie. hehe..

he wear this when i met him.. haha.. can't believe i draw it.. maybe that's the reason why i can't get him out of my head??

The 2nd guy..

Ok, ingt x yg baju aku nk beli tok jamuan 2? nie kesinambungan die. Well, last2 mak aku beli baju 4 jamuan tok aku. Well, mom know the best! haha.. K, nie dh lpas bape minggu jamuan 2 n dh selang bape buln lpas aku terserempak ngan bdk bju hijau 2.. Aku gi The Curve n family n aunty aku. Pastu aunty aku ajak teman die gi bank jap. Nk kluar duit. Die nk blanja. Hehe.. So, tgh aku melyn diri psl bosan sgt dduk dlm bank 2, tetbe aku rse mcm nk pusing blakang. Then, poof!! Aku maen mata ngan sorng mamat nie. Bkn maen mata ape. Cme.. bju kteorng sme! Well, xlh sme sgt. Die nye kemeja n aku nyer blous tpi sumph pattern n colour sme gle! Hu! Colour mke aku. Die pndang aku, aku pndang mke die. Pastu pndng baju sendiri. Haha.. Mmg lucu habis.. Aku trus toleh ke dpn n gi kt mak cik aku. Pergh! Malu gle beb! Ble aku kluar dri band, die ade lgi, aku cte n tnjuk kt aunty aku. Anty aku ley ckp 'enth2 ade jodoh kot.' haha.. hrp2.. tpi that guy ley tahan lh gak. Tpi xckup ngan tu, terserempak agi. Aduh! Die pndng slack je. Ape pndng2?? Hu! Aku cte lak kt mak aku. Mak aku lgi best. Die ckp, 'eh,xkn die beli baju kt tmpt pompuan kot'. Yelh, aku beli kt tmpt pompuan, dolly outlet. Xtau lh kalo die beli kat dollah outlet lak. haha.. Tpi sumph xley blah kot...

My shirt which kinda look alike him.. hmm.. still xpuas hati... hehe.. ;D

N enth nape... ble ingt dorng nie, aku mesti t'senyum sorng2. maybe lucu but yet sweet. kdg2 kte xsangka ley jumpe orng2 mcm 2 kn. n bnde nie smue happen thun lpas, lpas abis pmr n aku pn dh break ngan ash time 2. ape lgi, isi kekosongan masa dn hati kut.. haha... t'ingt2...

Nk jadi ape ek??

Hari nie penat gle ah! Nama je sabtu tpi x relax lngsung. Yelh, mne xnyer, arinie satu ari aku jalan. Dari pagi smpai ptg. Gle ah! Bgun2 gi carefour, giant, bagus tok cari bahan2 nk bwat kuih. Maklum ah nk raya kn xlme lgi. Pastu gi Jalan TAR cari baju raya aku. Sedih dowh. Family aku smue dh beli. Aku nie je yg last. Ratapan anak tiri. Sob sob sob.. Haha.. Xde ah. Aku xtau nape aku mlas sgt nk beli baju raya. Baju laen jugak yg tarik perhatian aku. Pelik2. Tapi tdi dh dpt dh so xyah cte pjg2. Aku cume nk cte tdi otw nk gi Jalan TAR, aku naek LRT, pastu smpai stesen KLCC, ade satu group nie msuk. Aku t'pdg kn one guy nie. Bkn ape, aku rase mcm ade orng pndg, aku pn pgng ah. N mase mula2 tu aku tgk muke die mcm knl, mcm prnh tgk. Then, 2nd time pndang, bru aku tau. Rupa2nya mke die mcm Ash tpi xtau lah btul ke x die. Tpi die pn nmpk mcm asyik pdng aku je (ceh2.. perasan..). Tpi enthlh. Mungkin xkot. Mcm mne aku tau? Psl ati aku lbh knl Ash so kalo tu btul Ash, ati aku dh bunyi siren dah, 'ALERT!'. Haha.. Tpi kalo tu mmg die, biarlh. Aku mlas nk tgur. Yelh, mne tau slh orng. Bwat malu mke je. Mne nk ltak mke nie?? Xkn nk sruh LRT lnggar kot?? Nk raya kot. Kesian ah. So, baik bwat dunno je. Lgipn die pn xde lak tegur aku so maybe btul bkn die ataupn maybe die pn tkut slh orng mcm aku. Haha..

So, esk ley lh aku nula kn operasi membuat kuih aku. Oh, xlpe gak cupcake aku. Thun nie byk lak peminat mintak cupcake aku. Hehe.. Perasan. Sbrnrnya bru 2 orng je. Along and adik. Along ah ngada2. Nk decorate ltk nama gf die. Tpi xpe, aku charge die RM2 satu. Ok ah tu. Family nyer pasal so dh kasi discount ah tu.

Bila dipikir2 kn blik kn aku nmpk mcm sesuai je jdi businesswoman bkk bakery shop. Tpi enthlh. Ble orng tnye ble aku dh besar aku nk jdi ape? Aku jwb business. And ade 2 soalan yg dorng akn tnye ble aku kasi jwpn tu.
1) S: Nk bkk business ape?
A: Enthlh. Byk sgt rse nk bkk. So xdecide lgi.
2) S: Kalo nk jdi businesswoman, npe ambil bio??
A: Enth. Xtau ah.
Tu jelh soaln dorng. Mcm xde yg laen smpai aku pn dh ley hafal tau! Tpi soaln ke-2 yg pling xley blah, n yg pling aku terkedu. Xtau nk ckp ape. Mungkin mule2 nk jdi doc kot pastu tetbe ley lak tkut tgk darah n organ2. Bkn tkut tpi bnde2 tu bwat aku sakit perut semcm je. Pastu mse kecil2 aku ingt nk jdi cikgu. Yelh, cuti sme ngan pelajar. Byk gak cuti tu. Pastu ari guru dpt hadiah. Hehe.. Tpi ble dh bsr, tup tup.. tgk aku xde lngsung sifat nk mengajar orng sbb nk ikutkn byk btul formula aku cipta sendiri yg aku je paham n jwpn btul. Hehe.. Xcye?? Xcye tnye kwn2 aku. Xcye gak?? Xcye sudah! Nama kau dolah! Dah kau bley blah! Haha..