25th

Alhamdulilah. Reaching my suku abad with gracefully and happily and positively. 

Not so much to hope or expect but i pray for more happiness and fun for many many years to come.  

It just 25 but still i still got lots in front of me. Many things to do, to fulfill, to reach and to experience. And i cant wait to be in those adventure.

Back then, i imagine myself settling down in this age. Meet a great guy who i want to spend my whole life with. Be a good wife and mother. It just not imagine. I was planning to settling down in this age. In fact when joe pop out the question, it did register my mind and i really thought this was it. This is what i have been waiting for. This is what im fulfilling and settling it.

But we only plan and Allah decide which the best path for us. And alhamdulilah. I thankful Him for this.

After awhile i realize that a dream is just a fantasy. It is free and it is lovely. I know for a fact i am not ready to settling down now. I know that i got a lot of things i want to cross off first. I know that i am nothing close to wife/mother material. And it is okay. Arya Stark just let down a man who he had crushed on because she want to see the world. She is spiritual and free. And somehow i was a little bit like her.

Maybe in 3 or 5 years i will meet a man and settling down. And maybe he was already here but like always timing is everything. But i hope for the best. I pray for the right path for me. Either path is fine for me.

But most of it is i thankful for granted for a better health, wealth and everything. Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah.

21st

Alhamdulilah. Masih diberi peluang untuk bernafas dan menikmati nikmat Allah. Dan alhamdulilah kerana dikurnai dan dikelilingi mereka2 yang menyangi aku n ohsem of course. Hehe.. 

An amzing surprise bday party from my family and coursemates tepat jam 12 mlm tdi. Xdelah tepat. But around that time. Before that my parents text ckp akan call kul 12mlm since tomorrow is my bday sbb slalunya i or dorng akan call dlm 11.45pm mcm tulah. But then nk dkat kul 12, my mom text ckp dorng dh smpai and turun lah. And i was like, xlawak kay. Pastu tgk kt tingkap as they requested, yep, they outside. Then dh turun smue tu, i thought dorng just nk kasi kek n spaghetti jelah, or maybe kluar minum2 kt kedai mamak kt bangi tu. Pastu tetbe ley lak abah nk test lampu baru dia tu kt tmpat parking sebelah PK sbb situ gelap sket. I pun xpkir apa lah kan. Then nmpk adik i. Yg adik lak ley pulak bwat2 ilang fon lah. I mmg dh rasa suspicious tpi layan jelah. Pastu tetbe kene baling tepung, dgn dorng jerit happy birthday. Dh tau dh sape.. Geng2 penang i lah tu n few yg laen. Sbb dri tahun lepas, mmg rutin kene baling tepung tok bday celebration. Tpi mmg xsangka lah dorng ada n complot dgn my parents.. gila terharu lah ngan dorng semua. And the gift.. aww.. xsangka.. rasa mcm nk nanges je. Eh xnanges. Cuma habuk terbang masuk mata. Xpun saki baki tepung tu. Hehe

Thanks sgt2 korng2 semua for the amazing 21st bday party. Thanks for the tepung, the cake and lovely present. Ya Allah terharu sgt2 lah. What a surprise. I love each and everyone of you so very much. Syg korng ketat2. Thanks for everything you guys did. :)) I mean it and cherish every moment of it.

Make a wish...

SESI SUAP MENYUAP

THE TEAM THAT MAKE IT HAPPEN!

Thats all.. Letak byk2 nnti hang lak. Hehe.. But thanks all.. Thanks so much for everything. I lap u! :)

19

Alhamdulilah. Still breathing. Still got a chance to celebrate my 19th bday. Thanks for those yg wish. Really appreciate it. Mommy and daddy keep asking me ape yg i nk for my bday and honestly i have no idea. So, i ask bnde yg basic,simple and senang. Dpt makn kat pizza pun jadilah. Xtau nap i crave tok pizza. dlm sebulan sekali tu adalh agk tetbe rasa nk mkn. tapi rasa je so still ley tahan lagi. Tapi dorng xpuas hati. So, i gave a gave up answer. Surprise me. And they did. They gave me things i always want it as a present. a perfume and a card. a bouquet of flowers that i love. and a place i like to eat sometime.

Pagi tadi, mai called ajak breakfast. Mula mmg malas. But then fkir qaedy last day. esok nk fly dah. i pun agree. so smpai kat diva, dorng buat2 tanya tarikh hari nie pulak. haish.. so, yeah they wish me and qaedy belanja breakfasttdi. thanks qaedy. nadia and farah wish as usual. Nadia pling semangat. Mmg tepat kul 12 dia whatsupp. aww.. so sweet. angah and family and my family wish i. nie wajib. haha.. nadh being unforgettable so dia lupa. yeah, dah biasa dah. haha.. tapi dia wish wlaupun dia terlupa. its okay nadh. thanks sayang. jgn lpe belanja i nnty. haha.. izz wish i. surprise. saje wish lmbt. my old friend, mzi wish i and we whatsupp smpai sekrng. lama kn.. my old crush or still crush wish i. and i flirt. i admit that. im not gonna lie about that. haha.. skndal kt kmj pun wish i wlaupun lmbt and i flirt. dia skandla i kay. haha.. dila and teha wish i. amalina wish i. nnek mcm biasa. hehe.. cucu ksayangan lah katakn. haha.. yeah.. tu je.. bunyi mcm sedeh je,,

Tah sedey pun. im happy sbb korng ingt. so sweet of u guys. trasa or trkilan je kot. This year ashraf xwish i. wlupun i nmpk dia on9. emm.. xpelah.. guess he already forget about me. actually he already since i wish bday dia aritu. Yep, thats my que to leaving. and i will.. i will.. joe pun xwish i this year. yg nie mmg trasa gila boleh x. he was friend. how can he forget wlaupun dia busy sekali pun. it just so weird. it didnt seem like joe at all. i buakn nk kata ape, but thing just different since that day we being honest. i guess things im feared the most finally happen. i lost him i guess. i should just shut up. it was a mistake, a big massive mistake, i shouldnt lead him on. i shouldnt say a thing. i ada text dia aritu but he never reply. he never did. and seriously i xkisah. i get to use to it. But not this one. this one is and exception. what happen joe? am i being to open? are you afraid? coz i am too.. but i guess its done now. its done.

Ape i nie cte sedey2 lak. okay, cut it. im happy. im 19. next year 20. may everything went well throughout my 19. insyallah. amin. and im gonna live this life and being happy like i use to before things happen. i mean, i still got a long way to go. we cant predict about the future. so, why waste planning it if we can hope and just go with flow and follow our own heart and intuition. nmpk x bly jadi ahli falsafah nie.. haha.. anyway, happy bday to me. fabulous 19 :)

ze present. thanks mommy, daddy and adik

gabriella.. rasnyalah. smpai sekrng xingt nama dia. but it was mmg fab tapi warna merah mmg nice lah but i love it.

smue pink. can u spot it?

Unexpected life

Today was the best damn thing that ever happen in my life! Seriously! Wait! It was my best b'day ever!!!!

I never thought they would surprise me like that! Gosh, u guys must really planned that well... coz u got me fool! haha..

Mom n dad, u told me u r going to dinner n aunty, i really it was just us who having a dinner. U close my eyes and thanks to you, now i know what it feels like to be blind.. hehe.. i never thought i would ever get this surprise party. I mean, come on, i told you i want a simple but, it still really are simple, just the more the merrier rite?

Thanks a million time for this sweet 17 party. I really had a great time today thanks to you. I love you guys so very3 much...

THANKS YOU ALL! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO VERY3 MUCH! AND I HAD A FUN TODAY! LOVE YA! ;)

The Best Damn B'day Ever! hehe..

Bila orang2 yg rapat ngan aku smbut b'day dorang.. Aku mesti t'ingt bnde nie.. Confirm ah.. Yg ble t'ingt.. Well, let just saying i smile wide enough till it feel like i cover my ear.. haha.. kidding jelh.. gle! blum prnh lgi tau. lgipn, tu just ayat yg menunjukkan betapa lebar nyer senyuman aku nie.. haha..

Ok, as u all noe, thun nie aku smbut my sweet 16 b'day.. well, almost sweet.. i mean not yet k..

Well, awal thun nie, Nad smbut Sweet 16 die n her bf (currently ex-bf) throw a surprise bday party for her. Sumph, aku jeles. But at the same time, it made me sad coz thun nie aku smbut bday tnpa orng ke3 dlm idup aku. Yeah, no ashraf.. Seriously, time tu aku really wish aku ley skip bday aku. Aku rse thun nie lah like so-not-the-best-bday-ever mcm thun lepas. Ptutnya the best tau coz it my was my SWEET 16!! Wlaupn it might not be the best mcm cte 'MY SWEET 16' kt MTV but still.. it should be good or at least ok.. Hmm...

So, the day came.. And i was completely wrong coz it was the best damn thing happen in my life! It was so sick! It was the best damn ever bday! Seriously.. Yelh, kalo x, xkn smpai sekrng aku ley ingt kn?? Siap ngan senyum lgi tu ble t'ingt.. Haha..


Apa yg bwat die best?? Well, seriously not ashraf.. Not at all.. Coz die completely lpe bday aku. Pergh, sbr jelh.. Nmpk sgt dh lpe aku trus.. Whatever! Ape yg best ialah thun nie rmai gle orng wish.. Haha.. Bkn kerna FB ye.. N btw, rmai orng wish aku dgn nyanyi lgu 'Happy Birthday'.. Wah2.. Terharu aku.. Joe wish aku 3 kali kot.. Haha.. But mse nie aku blum ske die lbh dri kwn lgi ye.. But yeah, die mmg laen dri laen. 3 different to wish me 'Happy Birthday'. Mmg unik dan xdisangka2.. N pling penting it was the sweetest thing he did to me than any of my ex-bf. Seriously. Aku xpernah alami lgi but thanks to him.. i did..

The 3 different way to wish me is...

1) Die text aku. Die bkn orng pertama wish aku ye n mcm biasa die wish aku dgn ayat yg mmg menyakitkn ati sket. joe kn.. Kau kalo xsakit ati aku mmg xbley kn??
2) Die call aku n nyanyi lgu happy birthday.. N mcm biasa menyakitkn ati gak but it so sweet of u sing for me.. hehe..
3) Die sent wish kt FB aku.. n kali nie xmenyakitkn ati.. just a short n plain wish.. well, something that unlike u but whatever..

See... Blum prnh lagi tau. Ala, aku xkisah sgt psl hadiah.. Lgi pn Hakim prnh ckp, 'wish is much more important that present' and somehow i couldn't agree more with him.. ;p

P.S : happy birthday adik ku syg.. n happy belated birthday my beloved twin! Love ya! ;D