25th

Alhamdulilah. Reaching my suku abad with gracefully and happily and positively. 

Not so much to hope or expect but i pray for more happiness and fun for many many years to come.  

It just 25 but still i still got lots in front of me. Many things to do, to fulfill, to reach and to experience. And i cant wait to be in those adventure.

Back then, i imagine myself settling down in this age. Meet a great guy who i want to spend my whole life with. Be a good wife and mother. It just not imagine. I was planning to settling down in this age. In fact when joe pop out the question, it did register my mind and i really thought this was it. This is what i have been waiting for. This is what im fulfilling and settling it.

But we only plan and Allah decide which the best path for us. And alhamdulilah. I thankful Him for this.

After awhile i realize that a dream is just a fantasy. It is free and it is lovely. I know for a fact i am not ready to settling down now. I know that i got a lot of things i want to cross off first. I know that i am nothing close to wife/mother material. And it is okay. Arya Stark just let down a man who he had crushed on because she want to see the world. She is spiritual and free. And somehow i was a little bit like her.

Maybe in 3 or 5 years i will meet a man and settling down. And maybe he was already here but like always timing is everything. But i hope for the best. I pray for the right path for me. Either path is fine for me.

But most of it is i thankful for granted for a better health, wealth and everything. Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah.

The Gigs

Finally i dpt gak attend gigs/concert. Alhamdulilah. Smue sbb kwn i, si sha tu ada extra tiket.. hehe.. i ape lgi.. kalo orng dh ajak kn... beside ada aizat kay.. i xde lh fanatik gle kt aizat but well, i minat gak kt dia. Lagu dia best2.. Seriously i mmg over excited gle lah semlm. Maklumlh 1st time. Its okay to be jakun okay. Haha.. Kesian sha melayan perangai i yg super excited nie..

Yelah, dri dlu kot i nk tgk. Start cte KAMI kot or start i minat lgu indie2 nie. Pernah gak request kt joe sruh bwak i. Tpi dia xkasi sbb dia kata gigs slalu abis kul 12 mlm so not good pompuan kluar malam2. I mcm.. ala, u adakn.. u jagalh i.. Hehe.. Then masa RTW few years back, masa still ngan ashraf, i nk gi kot.. Tpi mcm biasa xdpt. Abah xkasi. So last2 dduk depan stadium tu dgr dorng sound check kot. Yg i tau masa tu band skudap skudip tgh perform. Then masa kt muar, hot fm ada buat ape tah. Kosert gak tpi free. Kt tanjung. Masa tu along bawak kteorng tpi mlm tu sound check je. Esoknya baru real performance. Tiba esok ari, bonda lak xkasi. Dia kata xde sape nk tgkkn. Karang pape jdi ssh. Along ada kot. Dia pling tua. Dia ley jaga kteorng kn.. So last2 lepak kt sg mati je.. Sedey gle idup i.. Then masa zaman i minat kpop dlu. I n farah plan kot kalo cn blue dtg kl, ni gi tgk. Xkisah masa tu ada duit ke x. Nk tgk gak. But then cn blue dtg and kteorng xgi tgk pun. Haha.. Plan je lebih kot.. N now i dont think i ever want to watch it if dorng dtg lgi sbb i dh xminat dh kpop n cn blue nie. Sorry farah. Guess u have to ajak nadia.. hehe..

So u kene phm nape i overexcited gle kay.. And since these thing ada dlm bucket list i. So i guess now i can tick one off. Hehe..

Mmg best gle lah. Wlaupun kt dectar je dia bwat. But it did feel like a gig for me. Lgipun bdk2 kt situ smue mesti dh slalu gi. Sbb i nmpk dorng lompat2 mcm i tgk kt cte KAMI tu. It was a charity gigs and even i dpt tiket free. But yeah i sokong cancer awareness nie kay. Bcoz my mom have it and most of my relatives do. And who know.. i had that too.. Actually smue ada.. Smue ada cancer cell nie. Dia cme aktif n xaktif je. Pape pun better check cepat to prevent anything happen kan...

Anyway, have a great nite. I wish i could post some of the video tpi besar sgt. So here's some pf the picture.. hehe.. and sha.. thanks for bring me and lyn perangai i yg mcm bdk terlebih gula.. haha..

with sha and amira

with amir jahari

Bucket list

Had an interesting conversation the other day with the girls aritu except nadia sbb dia kt uia time tu.. sorry yang.. later2 kita hangout ber5 lgi ye.. anyway, back to those conversation..

We talked about our lives, the one, those dream..

Well, to be specific.. i ckp ngan dorng yg for now im not looking for anyone sbb i rasa mcm i still nk enjoy. i rasa mcm byk bnde i xbwat lagi. And yeah it seems nice to have someone yg ada interest mcm kita and we did all those fun thing that has been in my mind somehow. But the reality is i didnt find someone yg ada interest mcm i. okay. well, i did. but it was complicated and there. fullstop. i xmau ckp pasal dia. sbb everything i buat mesti i ingt dia. i tgk cte orng memancing je i ingt dia, memancing beb. i was totally need some help. serious help. To be honest i xske gi memancing. bosan bley x. i teman my dad and bro, i mcm ilang akal jap. tpi okay lgi lah kot drpd i fkir psal dia je i rasa mcm i nk hentak kepala i kt dinding. okay. stop. im good.. mcm dh lari dri topik kan.. so i shall stop..

anyway, farah same as i.. maybe sbb situasi kteorng sama kot.. ye ke farah? tpi nadh n mai rasa mcm they do not ape lgi fun things to do or enjoy.. well, fyi you both.. u guys dh jumpa someone yg buat korng gelak and senyum. and you guys learn a lot of new things by doing things that he likes or you likes. to be honest, i rindu buat bnde tu smue.. last guy was ashraf or joe.. tpi joe just a friend.. this getting deep.

okay.. my bucket list.. well, i just call it that since i ckp i rasa mcm byk lagi i nk buat kan.. well, i want to travel. around the world maybe. tpi byk bajet nk kluar.. maybe just travel with my besties. mcm dlm cte the hoppers tu. and i wanted write novel. i baru perasan i ada tulis dlu. tpi x abis pun. baru satu page kot. pastu aritu tnmpk ada contest under mph lah. tpi dh terlambat dh. maybe i try next time. insyallah. or kalo x pun i can always antr manuskrip i kt buku fixi. and i xtau npe i tpkir i wanted to post my own song kt u tube.. tapi2 jgn nk label i tiru yuna lah, najwa latif lah, aina tasnem lah.. bcoz maybe i just put a blank black page and ada background suara i.. u know what it silly, delete2.. haha.. maybe for now tu je kot. most of it, i mmg nk travel kot naik comby.. it used to be me and ashraf. tpi maybe this time with the girls ke. i mean the hoppers buat smue laki kan.. and dlu nk bwat band ngan my cousin.. and seriously i n joe dh buat nama band kteorng dah.. just that time ada i ngan dia je. kteorng ingt nk ajak our gf n bf join.. but it didnt last.. so somehow, that one pun dh reject. i ada satu bucket list lgi cme.. it was a secret.. coz it involve my imaginary.. haha.. xoxo..

See you again Bandung!

This was like first time jejak kaki ke negara orng. Fine, call me jakun or whatever.. Fyi, aku bukan ank orng kaya yg ley gi mne2 die nk. Aku cuma slah satu hamba Allah yg sederhana je. Nie pn syukur alhamduillah Allah murahkan rezeki aku dan keluarga smpai dpat aku jejak tapak kaki aku di tanah Indonesia. Alhamdulillah.. Aku gi sne ngan family n my aunty family. Sum it all, 10 orng pegi.. Mmg rmai tpi mmg meriah.. Pling best shopping lh kn.. Haha.. Yelh, orng gi Bandung + Indon kn shopping je mostly.. Yeah, we did that too tpi ade gak lh lwat2 tempat bersejarah + adventure gitu. Contohnya, tempat gunung berapi.. Then, aku n ayah aku pn sempat rendam kaki dalam hot spring.. Mmg best! Fresh gitu rse! Sepnjng kteorng kt sne, kteorng mkn nasi pandang je. Makanan orng sudan aku n family xdpt jamah coz kteorng kluar ngan kwn mak aku a.k.a. mak cik angkt aku. Tpi nasib baik lh xmkn coz dorng kata xsedap, manis sgt. Xsilap ari bulan, ley kne kencing manis tau.. Kluar ngan tehteg ( mak cik ) best gle. Die belanja aku n adik aku baju. Serius byk gle. Naek segan aku. Haha.. Pastu kteorng makn makanan traditional orng sne. Pape pn, thanks a lot tehteh. N serius i miss u a lot. Kalo ade rzeki lagi, i be there again n meet u.. Muahx! kiss2, hug2.. Tpi kt sne yg xbestnya, ade je orng ikut kte sepanjang kte jln. Al, mcm paparazi lh cme dorng jual brng n mintak kte belikn lh. 2 je.. Tpi serius rimas gle! Rsenya mcm tulh perasaan artis2 xspecially Hollywood rse ble paparazi asyik ikut dorng je. Ugh! Xde privasinya! Nasib baik aku nk jdi bdk indie je.. Xpn, belakang tabir sudh.. haha.. Hrp2.. ;)

Aku kat sne 3ari je.. Wlaupn kejap but still we have so much fine + experience.. Lpas nie kalo ley + ade rezeki, aku kan lwat Bandung lgi..

BANDUNG! TUNGGU AKU YE.. HAHA..

anyway...
here's a few picture u can sight on.. ;))