I know that i will always have this soft spot for him. I knew i do. Eventhough i say that i will never let him in, that i was mad at him, that i was moving on blah blah blah. He somehow always have the power to change my mind and melt me. He always knew what to say or do. And i fall again. I fall again hard on the floor.
There is something inside of me that give me hope especially when he said he wanted to meet so that i could show him all the anger i kept for him. And it give me hope that he has changed that we can somehow probably fix this, whatever this is. Yelah selama ni kn it was one sided. Now maybe can be two sided?
But there also a part of me that just give up. I dont want to give a try anymore. I try to save it and now im done. And i dont know if we can fix this anymore. I know that there was this 10 or 11 years of friendship but what does it mean if you just gonna come and go right? I give my all and now i had nothing to give anymore.
Still, i was waiting for him to make any move to make it right again. A chance to prove to me that he's change, that he's cared. So prove me joe. Prove it to me and showed me that it is worth of trying. Give me a good reason to stay coz i have none except of us being together for too fucking long. I give you one last chance because i had this thought that the universe want us to at least have it sort it out and even if we gonna be apart for good this time, at least it be a good goodbye, a good closure. Im trying to be positive here, about you, about me and about us.
There is something inside of me that give me hope especially when he said he wanted to meet so that i could show him all the anger i kept for him. And it give me hope that he has changed that we can somehow probably fix this, whatever this is. Yelah selama ni kn it was one sided. Now maybe can be two sided?
But there also a part of me that just give up. I dont want to give a try anymore. I try to save it and now im done. And i dont know if we can fix this anymore. I know that there was this 10 or 11 years of friendship but what does it mean if you just gonna come and go right? I give my all and now i had nothing to give anymore.
Still, i was waiting for him to make any move to make it right again. A chance to prove to me that he's change, that he's cared. So prove me joe. Prove it to me and showed me that it is worth of trying. Give me a good reason to stay coz i have none except of us being together for too fucking long. I give you one last chance because i had this thought that the universe want us to at least have it sort it out and even if we gonna be apart for good this time, at least it be a good goodbye, a good closure. Im trying to be positive here, about you, about me and about us.
But if there is nothing at all, if you wanna shut me again, then I want you to leave. Im tired. And im done. I did my best try to save us, to fix us. But i guess we cant be fix. This cant be save. And now I want you to go and never come back. I want you to go because i cannot deal with this anymore. I cant be the one who falls apart when you decide to leave again. I cant be the one who try to put the pieces together when you broke it and shatter it into a million pieces. I cant be the one who stay here in this silence and in this darkness full of your memory and us. I cant anymore.
So now im asking you to go if you had nothing to say. Just. Please. leave.
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