Hypocrite vs Fake

First of all, u need to differentiate between hypocrite and fake. Then will only you understand it.

Hypocrite is kinda like backstabber. Kau lagak baik depan dia, puji dia blah blah blah tapi belakang dia, kau buat taik, kau ckp buruk psl dia, kau kutuk kutuk dia mcm kau bagus sgt and kau je yg betul. While fake is where.. well.. kau fake lah. Kau fake kau suka dia, kau fake yg kau ok je dgn apa yg dia buat wlapun deep down inside you, kau mmg nk strangle dia smpai mati or just push him in front of the bus pastu biar dia mati mcm george o'malley. Kau fake je, kau xdelah smpai puji melambung kt dia. You just pretend like you care but actually you dont care about all those shit that he/she said. Fhm tak? Tak fhm? Xpe, nnti i terangkn lebih detail lagi kay.. 

Kadang aku rasa mcm hati aku ni hitam sgt and my life is just full of hatred sbb cara aku react or think or maybe say. Mungkin aku mmg jenis yg akan tunjuk kalo betul2 tak suka kt sesorng itu. Like mcm haritu aku kene berjumpa dgn orng aku tak ske sbb ada event. Aku nk lari mcm mne kan? So aku salam dia pastu aku blah. Takdelah. Dia dduk dekat ngan aku pastu aku dgr lah dia ckp2. Seksa wei rasa. Aku tak tahan dgr dia ckp or hear any word that came out from his mouth. Aku rasa mcm nk ckp je kat dia, 'all the crappy things u said just now is bullshit and it sound so fucking bullshit'. And bagi mengelakkan bnde alah ni terjadi, aku pun blah. Duduk jauh dri dia. 

And then they are some people di mana sama isu dgn aku, tak suka dgn mamat tu sbb perangai dia yg jual ikan. Si penjual ikan kt tapak pasar malam pun lebih mulia tau. Tapi dorng lain. Dorng ckp je tak suka pastu komen2 perangai mamat tu. Tapi bila depan mamat tu, they welcome him with open door, with loving embrace like nothing happen, like what he do was right and does not bother you. And aku berdiri kt situ and was like, what the fuck is going on here? Suddenly u change side or u change ur mind or u just fucking idiot? Serious tak phm ngan orng mcm ni.

Tapi perlu diingatkn orng mcm tulah yg kau kene hati2 setiap kata yg kau ucapkan, setiap gerak geri dan tingkah laku kau, they are watching. Mungkin kau duduk satu meja ngan dorng pastu tetbe kluar isu psl orng yg kau tak ske and it turned out that dorng pun tak ske orng tu jugak. And kau sibuk cite psl dia semua and dorng pun did the same. Then one day tah mcm mne kau nmpk cara dorng lain orng tu mcm seolah2 takde rasa tak suka or benci. Ada kemungkinan dorng pun ada bercakap psl kau dgn org tu. Dorng tau semua rahsia buruk kau and dedahkn kt orng tu untuk jatuhkn kau. Seriously orng hipokrit jauh lebih bahaya. 

Bagi aku, aku dah sgt biasa dgn situasi mcm ni. Kalo aku betul2 tak suka orng tu, aku mmg tak kisah like lantaklah. Dri muka aku and cara aku pun dh boleh tau yg aku tak suka sesorng tu so kalo kau nk cite psl aku kutuk or ngata kt dia, go ahead. I really dont mind. I mean whats the point of hiding the obvious kan? But still untuk orng yg aku tak suka tak bersebab or sebab2 tak pasti, aku mungkin boleh dikatakan hipokrit sbb masih boleh fake and pretend mcm takde pape. Tapi mcm mne hipokrit pun aku, aku takkan cite kt orng psl apa certain orng ckp kt aku psl orng dia tak suka. I dont go selling people stories. That's cheap. Or paling low pun using to blackmail or ungkit or menjatuhkan sesorng. I just keep it to myself and lama2 nanti aku lupa lah sbb bnde tu tak penting pun. If you hurt my feeling, i wont go dig what u said 20 years ago and use it against you. I simply ignore you and whatever you do, i dont give a fuck about that. Hidup kau pandai lah kau urus sendiri. From that moment i dont like you, you are dead to me. And dont go and ask for my help coz all i ever going to give is nothing or some crappy shit that suit you perfectly. 

I think my honesty is something people should appreciate about. Ye, aku tau aku nmpk mcm takde manners and the fact that i was cold and heartless but cut me a slack will you. If you nice to me, i would do the same. If you messed with me, then you will deserve your price. Aku ok kalo orng ok. And aku takkan pernah tak suka seseorng tanpa bersebab. Im not that kind of person. Even though kdg nmpk mcm sebab aku tah pape je. But i had my point. It was up to u untuk terima or tak. Last time i check this is a free country. Tak taulah the future mcm mne kan. Point is, whatever you wanna be, hypocrite or fake, that was all really up to u. Anything that suit you and make u feel comfortable in your own skin. No matter what, just be happy :)