Miss Missing You

Lately i missed him a lot. A lot. A lot kinda way that i start to having flashback of all the good old days we had. A lot that i started to review and having doubts of my action. A lot that somehow i was easy to shed a tear when watching a very sad scene that involve death. A lot that i somehow think that i should stop what im doing and start to talk to him. A lot until i could not even explain how a lot was it. And even so, you would not understand it. 

I hope it goes away. But it didnt. It grew stronger somehow. I kept myself busy with this stupid marketing plan that i tak faham langsung. But i think sebab belajar marketing ni sangat susah and i just feel like i wanna talk to him about this. He knows how to make me feel a bit better or at least give me faith and give me a little bit strength. I miss him. I miss talking to him. *take a breath

Maybe this just a hormone thing. It will go away somehow. So what i miss him. But did he even miss me? Of course tak kan. Kalo tak, he will try to find me. But he didnt kan. You know at first, i did leave because i want a piece of mind, i want to move on, i want to get away from him. But now, now i just feel like.. i just had a glimpse of hope that he come and find me, that he somehow have a courtesy to even text me and said hi. Tapi kadang i rasa macam i tak move on pun. I just getting used of him not being around and not to talk to him. And thats was it. I guess.

This will go away. It will go away. This missing thing. It just a miss. A miss missing him. Now and then. And thats just the thing that i need to deal every once in awhile. Now and then.