Trust me on this, if it hurts you more than it makes you happy, leave, move on. You deserve lots more. You dont deserve this. Sitting next to the telephone, hoping that he/she would call. Or you did something just to get their attention but all you get was nothing coz they never care, they never notice. You are young, pretty and reckless. Life is short. Dont waste it on that particular person. I know it was a bit confusing like whether you should hold on or let go. Bear this in mind, whatever meant to be yours, will always come back no matter what. Just have faith.
I've been in this kind of situation twice i think. It took me quite a long time to realize that I don't deserve this. That i should have leave when nothings left here for me to hold on to. Yeah, of course there's this thing we called memory. But that just it. A memory that i kept close to my heart. Yeah maybe what we had was amazing but that was like a long time ago. He was not the same person i knew 10 years ago and we were never be the same anymore. There's are no point to pretend like nothing was wrong when everything is falling apart actually.
I've been in this kind of situation twice i think. It took me quite a long time to realize that I don't deserve this. That i should have leave when nothings left here for me to hold on to. Yeah, of course there's this thing we called memory. But that just it. A memory that i kept close to my heart. Yeah maybe what we had was amazing but that was like a long time ago. He was not the same person i knew 10 years ago and we were never be the same anymore. There's are no point to pretend like nothing was wrong when everything is falling apart actually.
I guess the only reason why i stay and hold on all this time was because i thought that maybe this time around it will be different. But i was the foolish of them all. Yeah, everything was different, everything changing. And i tried to make things like it used to be. But after awhile, it just didn't feels right, like i am forcing things to happen like i want it to. So i stopped. After all, im the only who tried hardest to make things stay and not to fall apart. You see, it should be both sided. If he/she really loves you or want to be with you, they will try their best too. Both of you will try your best to make your relationship better and stronger. It wasnt suppose only one sided who did more.
And i've been losing myself as i chasing him and as i try to make things work. I become the person i swore i never be. I let him pull me down and drown me over and over again. I guess that what love did to you. It blind you and let the people that you love hurt you. It was like you addicted to their presence as if it was a drug. But somehow when enough is enough, and you realize that you deserve whole lot more, you will slowly let go and move on and searching for your own lost soul, your old self. But of course, at first it will feel hard. You will have doubt, you will think of the 'what if'. It feels hard to move on and let go and to mend the broken heart. Nothing was ever easy in this life. If it was easy, that was not life. Maybe you in other world or something. Believe me, slowly, when the time come, you will move on, you will realize that why you had to leave in the first place and you start to question and debate how foolish you are that time. But all and all, you will feel relieve and glad. And who knows, you finally met the one and you lives happily ever after.
Nope. It only happen in fairy tales or movie. But maybe it could happen to you. Maybe but im skeptical. Lols.
So, look back and think. Do you deserve this or not? Are you happy or not? Do you want to hold on or let go? It was all up to you. But remember like i said in the beginning. If it make you sad more than it make you happy, then let go. Its okay to leave and move on because you deserve more, you deserve better than this. And when you leave, never had second thoughts and never looking back. Focus on yourself and be happy and chasing the dreams and do whatever hell you wanted to do. There are more in this life and life is just too short to be miserable. Be happy and love yourself. :)
I am grateful that somehow i had a wake up call and realize that i dont deserve this, i deserve more. I am happy with my life now, at least i try to be. But im keeping myself super busy so i wont think about him a lot these day. Slowly i am move on and let go. Everything takes time. Im still in process of healing my wounded heart and get over him. But all in a good favor i hope. :)
And i've been losing myself as i chasing him and as i try to make things work. I become the person i swore i never be. I let him pull me down and drown me over and over again. I guess that what love did to you. It blind you and let the people that you love hurt you. It was like you addicted to their presence as if it was a drug. But somehow when enough is enough, and you realize that you deserve whole lot more, you will slowly let go and move on and searching for your own lost soul, your old self. But of course, at first it will feel hard. You will have doubt, you will think of the 'what if'. It feels hard to move on and let go and to mend the broken heart. Nothing was ever easy in this life. If it was easy, that was not life. Maybe you in other world or something. Believe me, slowly, when the time come, you will move on, you will realize that why you had to leave in the first place and you start to question and debate how foolish you are that time. But all and all, you will feel relieve and glad. And who knows, you finally met the one and you lives happily ever after.
Nope. It only happen in fairy tales or movie. But maybe it could happen to you. Maybe but im skeptical. Lols.
So, look back and think. Do you deserve this or not? Are you happy or not? Do you want to hold on or let go? It was all up to you. But remember like i said in the beginning. If it make you sad more than it make you happy, then let go. Its okay to leave and move on because you deserve more, you deserve better than this. And when you leave, never had second thoughts and never looking back. Focus on yourself and be happy and chasing the dreams and do whatever hell you wanted to do. There are more in this life and life is just too short to be miserable. Be happy and love yourself. :)
I am grateful that somehow i had a wake up call and realize that i dont deserve this, i deserve more. I am happy with my life now, at least i try to be. But im keeping myself super busy so i wont think about him a lot these day. Slowly i am move on and let go. Everything takes time. Im still in process of healing my wounded heart and get over him. But all in a good favor i hope. :)
No comments:
Post a Comment