Kahwin? Haha.. Not now..

You guys must think that im taking my space and time and whatever. I am actually. But at the same time i was busy with exam and labs. Aku kene stay kot this cuti sem. A sacrifice that need to be made. Tahun akhir kan. So fhm2 jelh. Xpe. After this ley relax sket. Kot. I mean lpas abis everything lah. Ley travel2 ke hape. Kan kan.. Kalo duit ada.. Haha.. If not, berangan jelah. Takpun gi ler mana2 yg dekat. But i am not gonna talk about my busy-ness nii. I mean sape je nk dgr kan. Hahahaha.. And beside tgk title lah kan..

Hydrometer. One of method yg kene guna.

So, bulan 2 ni aku ada 2 wedding nk kene attend. Hari yg sama lak tu tpi tempat yg lain. Satu kt KL, satu kt Johor. Bapaklh. Matilanak! One is my high school friend and satu lagi sedara/classmate waktu matriks. Tak pahm? Well, jodoh kot. Tetbe ley lak sama tempat matriks pastu sama class. Tpi kteorng tak rapat sgt. MAybe kecik2 dlu rapat lah. Main masak2, pondok2, kahwin tu semua. But since semua dh grown up, we tore apart. Dlu aku, dia and angah rapat gila wei. Then she changed or maybe we changed. So last2 tinggal aku ngan angah je. Aku adalah gak try start conversation. Mana tau kot2 ley sambung balik ikatan terputus tu. Tpi tak boleh lah. Awkward gle wei. I seriously tak tahu nk ckp apa. Mcm ckp perkara basic je kot. So i guess that was it. Tpi takdelah sampai tak bertegur. Tegur. Dh classmate wei, pelik je nnti orng tgk. Dhlh sedara.

Which one should i go? Really.

Aku nk gi wedding kwn aku tu sbb alang2 the girls ada. So sambil tu ley lepaskan rindu. And then if i go to sedara aku nyer wedding, dpt jumpa angah. Last jumpa raya kot and that was last year. Just i hope kalo i gi wedding sedara i tu, xde mulut tempayang makcik2 yg dok sibuk tanya turn aku bila mcm aritu cousin aku kahwin belah my mom lah. Disebabkan i know nothing good will ever coming out from my mouth, aku just senyum dan senyap. Sbb aku tahu hanya makian dan ayat sarkastik yg akan kluar dri mulut aku yg comel ni.

Takdelah, yang aku tak paham. Rmai lagi yg atas2 aku tu tak kahwin lagi. Perlu ke persoalkn aku mcm tu. Mmg lah aku yg anak 1st and pompuan lak tu. Tpi chill lah wei. Ni 2016 kot. We had different perspective. To be honest, aku rasa sekrng ni mmg aku nk fokus on study, dpt scroll pastu kerja, pamper family aku n diri aku. Marriage is the last thing i will ever think about. Biar aku repeat and tekan kn. Marriage is the last thing i will EVER EVER think about. And tak tahu lagi sempat jumpa jodoh ke tak. Tetbe ajal yang dtg pinang dlu. Ha... And jodoh aku tu pun mungkin still tgh rilex2 enjoy2 and maybe still sesat tak jumpa jalan. Guna waze pun ley sesat sbb waze bagi jln dlm, jln kampung, jln tah pape. Aku bkn anti waze tpi waze mmg kadg2 wasting my time okay.

And last but not least, aku rasa mcm aku masih telalu kanak2 untuk kahwin. Mcm aku pernah mention dlu, bila kahwin nnti byk kot responsibility dia. And aku tak ready lagi. Aku student di mana waktu takde class diisikan dengan tido yang tak pernah cukup and movie2 yg ambik dri member and hu-ha-hu-ha dgn kwn2 sekepala. I dont even think im ready to settle with one person for the rest of my life. Dont get me wrong. I like joe and i've been like him for a few years. Lari mcm mne pun mesti lari balik ke arah dia. Puas cari rebound tpi semua aku reject last2. Setia sgt ni wei. Jampi apakah ini? Haha..

I like him and yeah i hope one day we will settle down with each other. But that time not now. Buat masa ni masing2 sibuk kejar impian masing2. And belum tentu lagi dia jodoh aku. So, i like the way my life is right now. I love my relationship with my family, my friends and joe and my cats. I wont change for a thing. I just like the way it is. The familiar and the comfortable that makes me happy. So apa kata jangan tanye ble aku nk kahwin lagi ke apa ke. Sbb takut apa yg terkeluar dri mulut aku ni agak pedas dan berbisa. Pastu nnti kau terasa and then nk tarik muka. Sbb aku mmg boleh jadi heartless and i got a resting-bitch-face. So im doing just fine.

Membebel pnjg2 pun still tak tau nk gi wedding yg mana satu. Hmm.. takpelah. Biar future nasuha yg fkir kan. Haha.. Apakah... Dh dh.. Lama tak blog tu yg merapu dia lain mcm tu. LOLs. :D