Jealous much??

Bagi sape yg kenal i mesti tau yg i bkn jenis yg snang jeles. The word jealous just didnt exist in my life. Mesti korng like seriously pompuan ni xpernah rasa jeles? Bohonglah. But sadly its the truth. Pelik mmg pelik tpi tu kenyataan kay. I dpt apa je bohong. Bgitau sket.

 

Ok. Adalh jeles tu sket tpi kejap je. Like npe orng ni rapat ngan orng ni or npe dia dpt beli bnde alah tu, npe tu npe ni. Tpi kejap je. Lama2 i lpe and it slowly disappeared. Pastu i jeles ble joe gi stadium tgk jdt nyer match and dia bwak vespa dia round2 and dia gi kedai vintage yg i nk gi tu. Tu antara bnde yg mmg tah pape tpi antara bnde yg mmg i jeles. Tau pelik n tah pape. But i just get a jealousy feeling with those stuff.

But to be jeles bcoz of a guy with another girl, tu bkn i. Sbb time ngan ashraf lagi i mmg xde perasaan jeles. Perasaan sakit hati sbb dia selalu busy memanjang, xde masa tok i, mmg ye. But untuk i jeles ble i nmpk dia text with other girl or ambik gmbr ngan girl laen etc, i takde rasa apa2. Sbb tu ashraf left me sbb nmpk mcm i ni tak bgi apa2 effort in our relationship. Sbb i ley xkisah dia ngan pompuan tu. I kisah actually cme i xnk kongkong dia. I pun xske orng control i. I ada ckp kot kt dia kalo kwn xpelah. Eleh, padahal dia mmg nk dump kte tu. Okay, cte lepas. Xperlu dikenang. And then there was joe. I xrasa jeles ble dia ngan other girl. Like seriously, i xjeles, i dont give a damn, mcm seolah2 xpe last2 dia ngan aku je. Cewah. Confident gle. Tpi sekrng feeling dh xde. Dh move on. Haha.. Tinggal kenangan jelh.

I always hope yg i akan jumpa someone yg bley bwat i rasa jeles. Kalo crush2 tu xde apa rasa sgt sbb alah crush je pun. Ble jumpa je excited, kalo tak jumpa, tak ingt pun. But then, my wish/hope came true. I found someone yg berjaya bwat i rasa jeles. Eh menyampah lak perasaan jeles ni sbb tah pape. Bgi i lah. I perasan perasaan tu ada tpi i bwat2 dia tak wujud sbb untuk apa i nk jeles kt dia. He's not my significance other pun. Tpi tulah, peliklah. Dlm ramai2 npe perlu i rasa jeles kt dia. Tak munasabah tau. Ble i nmpk dia ngan girl laen or dia ada msg ngan girl laen, perasaan jeles tu ada muncul. Tpi i rasa mcm tah pape lak sbb who is he for me to be jealous with. Mcm pelik je ayat ni. Xpe. Pokoknya korng fhm apa yg i nk smpai ni kn. I xpatut rasa jeles. Xde bnde pun nk dijeleskan lgi pun. Dh dh ckup. Perasaan je kot. Lelama nnti hilang lah. Bknnya nk end up ngan dia pun. Lps ni hilang berterbangan lah crush2 n jeles2 ni kt dia.

Ok perlu stop. I think im going crazy.