Regarding to the previous post. People told me that i caught up too much with joe. That i was holding on too much on him and i am still waiting for him. To be honest, i dont know. I really dont know. After i got back from penang, the feeling suddenly gone. I felt nothing. And funnily i got a theory for that. a) Maybe i kept myself busy. b)Maybe i really really had a great time. c)Maybe i was finally clean. But i dont know. I mean we did texting while i was in penang. Just a few texts. Nothing serious. Jgn fkir laen kay. I dont know if it feels great or whatever. It feels really weird actually. Losing this feeling. But weird nice i think. But it was super nice to know that everything was great now between us. We didnt text really often but it everytime we talked, we talked like we used to back in old days. And i really like that. Yg pling ohsem is when he remember those angan2 konon nk tubuh band nama blackpink rockstar. Bajet je lebih. Haha.. Npe pilih nama tu? Thats was the combination of our fav color. And he put those 2 color kt vespa dia wlaupun wrna pink tu sket je ada kat vespa dia. Tpi mcm dia ckp, janji ada. Yeah, janji ada. Thank you.
Tpi maybe the feelings gone sbb all this time i was missing the old him. And when he came back, everything fits perfectly fine. Mungkin sbb tu slowly feeling tu let go. Mungkin. But it was better this way. I couldnt take a risk of losing my best guyfriend. Again. I lose him before due to my stupidness and his ego. I dont want to lose him anymore. At least not now. Maybe i should keep myself busy even more. Probably.
And maybe i kinda tired of waiting. The hope was there. Just the waiting for something miracle, something bigger to happen, i kinda tired of waiting it to happen. I know that they say, good things take times to happen. But i guess my time is up. It reach it limit already. And beside they also said, sometime u gotta let go things and open up to new things. If it right for you, it will come back. So, maybe i should start to open up. Maybe i should give someone else a chance. I mean if it meant to be, it meant to be kan? So, i should take a risk and give a chance. Maybe we could start off with that guy on previous post. Yeah, i sound mad that time. He being too straight forward. Literally too straight forward. Mne x i naik hantu nyer?! But give him a chance. Who knows right? Beside it was really a time for me to open up to people. I met lot of people this last few year. But none of them did i treat well sgt. Bcoz of the holding on and probaly the frustrated. But everythings ok now, what holding me back? I should move on. I should.
Tpi maybe the feelings gone sbb all this time i was missing the old him. And when he came back, everything fits perfectly fine. Mungkin sbb tu slowly feeling tu let go. Mungkin. But it was better this way. I couldnt take a risk of losing my best guyfriend. Again. I lose him before due to my stupidness and his ego. I dont want to lose him anymore. At least not now. Maybe i should keep myself busy even more. Probably.
And maybe i kinda tired of waiting. The hope was there. Just the waiting for something miracle, something bigger to happen, i kinda tired of waiting it to happen. I know that they say, good things take times to happen. But i guess my time is up. It reach it limit already. And beside they also said, sometime u gotta let go things and open up to new things. If it right for you, it will come back. So, maybe i should start to open up. Maybe i should give someone else a chance. I mean if it meant to be, it meant to be kan? So, i should take a risk and give a chance. Maybe we could start off with that guy on previous post. Yeah, i sound mad that time. He being too straight forward. Literally too straight forward. Mne x i naik hantu nyer?! But give him a chance. Who knows right? Beside it was really a time for me to open up to people. I met lot of people this last few year. But none of them did i treat well sgt. Bcoz of the holding on and probaly the frustrated. But everythings ok now, what holding me back? I should move on. I should.
May... please be nice.. :))
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