Bebelan semata.

I love watching people. I love watching couple xspecially yg dh kahwin, ada anak ni. Oh, perasaan jeles sudah tiada. Sbb calon dh xde. Im free and i know what i want in my life, what i wanna do next. I get it all figure it out. Ok, so tgh lepak2 ni, i saw this couple with 2 kids. Anak dia dua2 pompuan n comel lak tu. Sorng byk mulut and hyper. Yg sorng lagi lak manis je ble dia senyum n gelak. Geram lak ceq tgk and tetbe terberangan lak. Cewah. Haha.. Xde xde..

I think both of them penat kot. I mean the parents. Maybe dorng ada event ke apa ke tdi. Xtau lah sbb kalo tgk anak2 dorng hyper, ceria je. Maybe ckup tdo dh kot. But the parents. Both of them look so tired and sgt xde mood. I get that. Just mcm mne xde mood pun kau, dont u ever treat ur wife like that. Xdelah, masa nk order mkn or minum pun nmpk ssh. Pastu ble wife dia mintak dia pnggil waiter, si husband ley lak ckp panggil lah sendiri. Ya Allah time tu i rasa mcm nk hempuk je kepala laki dia. Ok fine mungkin main2. Sbb my dad pun kdg2 bwat my mom mcm tu tpi joking. Sbb dia akan gelak smbil dia usik my mom. But this one kalo tgk muka pun mcm.. hmm.. penat sgt ye bang. Baik balik rumah je tdo. Snang. Sbb kalo tgk pun dorng order air je, mkn idak. Serious drpd buang duit baik balik bwat air sendiri. Xpun tdo je. 

I cannot lah see like this. Pastu ego mcm ni. Dgn mke penat dia lagi. I xboleh tau.. Haish... 

Joe, promise me we wont end up like them. Aik npe joe? Dh ubah fikiran ke? Haha.. Xdelah. Entah. For now it was habit kot sebut2 nama joe and psl joe. Selama ni gua chill je. Kt twitter i pun berlambak gle i tweet psl dia. Xtau lah sama ada i nk move on ke apa. I pun kdg2 confuse gak ngan diri i ni. Haha.. Pape pun, i still with my decision. I love joe and part of me wish that we were meant for each other somewhere in the future. Tpi pape pun, i redha ngan segala ketentuan Ilahi. After all, kte manusia just merancang, Allah yg tentukan segalanya.

Beside, no one has ever make me happy like joe did. Chang mmg ye. He make me realize yg i deserve someone better. I do deserve someone better. But the heart just want it want. And for now, dgn joe je boleh cte apa2 for hours. Xkisah lah psl samping ke vespa ke barang2 or pkaian vintage ke. Anything. We just like that. Mungkin sbb we the best of friend. Kami kan teman terlebih mesra. Sudah terbiasa bersama. Cewah. Ayat mengundang sih. Haha..

Pape pun, ni semua hanya bebelan semata. Chill lah. Wa just ckp je. Memain je ni. Hehe.. :)

Slah satu cara tok move on mungkin? Haha..