I got a pretty busy and a pretty dull week. I never thought that dull was pretty.. haha.. no just kidding. So, this week i got lots of assignments and mid term exam. Kalo nk ikut kn i didnt actually do my assignment nor did i study so much. I on9 je kot. And debate myself whether i should or should not text joe.
Everyday i keep on debate myself. Like go to hell that book. Stupid 60days. I can text anytime i want, whenever i want. You know what im gonna text him right now. Yeah but then i didnt. Somehow my subconscious will keep me busy by making me see all those tah pape video at utube. Or the fact that now im listening to radio more often, so when there are new songs, i was like i gotta download this song man. So, i didnt get a chance to text joe. And eventually i forgot. I know, right now i remember it. Coz if i didnt, i wont mention about joe. But right now, i just didnt feel like i want to text him.
Forgetting about joe was freaking hard right now coz im not busy like i use to. I mean i know i got lot of things to do but somehow i always had time to sit around and thought about joe. Xmcm dlu masa i busy ngan choir. Bila lah nk choir lagi. MMg i ada join club laen tapi mcm xaktif je.. so, this is me right now.
Btw, i bump into clone joe aritu. Surprisingly i didnt feel anything when i see him. I was just like eh clone joe lah. No more running or hugging him or wanted him to tell me he was joe. It so weird. But it is a good feeling. Maybe i did moving on. Just a lilttle bit. But its okay. Baby step.
Or maybe i found my healing guy. Nahh.. i xrasa dia healing guy i. i just adore him. Aritu balik dri kelas bi, i nk gi sembyg dlu lh sebelum gi lunch. i saw him tapi i buat2 xnmpk. tapi i nmpk dia nmpk i. hehe.. maybe dia nk tegur tapi tgk i nk gi surau so dia kata xpelah. or maybe i just perasan. x. nie bersangka baik. then i pkir karang lah i tegur dia. leps abis sembyg, i tgk dia dh pegi. and i was like mad at myself. i always like this when i like somehow. i bajet jual mahal. i pretend as if i try to deny it. this is not the first time. dlu ngan abg topup and ckgu muzik i. hmm.. now him. tapi xpe. past is past. gi mkn. nk gi cafe tu nmpk dia. mula2 i xperasan dia, bila dh abis daki tangga tu baru perasan. dia mmg tunggu i pndng dia. thats what i think lah. haha.. dia tegur tanya i dah mkn and am i alone. dia tgh mkn ngan kwn dia time tu. segan lah i. and beside my roomate tgh tunggu i tuu.. that will be mean. masa dia nk blah tu, dia tegur lgi..
I didnt feel those butterfly in the tummy or my heart race really fast or that i was in cloud 9. it was definitely a crush. or maybe he just look really good looking that time. I never thought a police uniform will be that sexy. haha.. lol.
But if i was goona falling in love one day. I will make sure he will make me feel those evil butterfully in the tummy and that my heart beat quite fast like its gonna pop up soon and make me floating to cloud 9... :)