Maybe I change too

Oh.. i forgot to tell you that it turn out clone joe was my senior. he was second year. he was same course as mine. i never thought that. i mean all this time i thought he was first year and that he same bio class as mine.. but it turn out the other way around. thats explain why he looks a bit old.. haha.. sorry.. i was surprise when i saw him at mersing that time. i told my roomate and she was also surprise. but yeah.. i couldnt stop staring at him and i think he knew. there was that time i just wish he was joe as usual. i feel like i want to run at him and i want him to tell me he was joe. but you know it wasnt him. and i know he wasnt him.

And as hard as it take not to text joe, i text him on my way to mersing. telling him where i go and what i do. trust me it takes everything in me not to text him. but at last i lost it. and as usual, he didnt reply. and somehow i didnt mind. maybe i get use to it. maybe i just knew this is how it gonna be now. but he did reply the next day. and i dont know why but somehow it feel worthy. all those wait, all those heart acne. but you know there are definitely something wrong with me when i wrote this. coz i shouldnt feel something like this. i shouldnt.

I realize that it wasnt fair that i say people around me are changing. it wasnt fair that i put all those blame on them. change is good. but somehow i want the old, not the new. and maybe i did change. i just didnt realize it. all i knew is that experience make people wise. coz somehow this time i no longer wait and hoping. i am not longer changing my mind like i use to. and this time i am ready to start a fresh. im not gonna hate love coz i fall in love everyday day. and maybe this time i knew the meaning of happiness.. and sit around and wait just a waste.. so, i go and do things i wanna do, things i love and take a chance and be fearless.. maybe this time i start to look on positive side and left behind those negative things behind.. :))