I cant stay mad at you. Even if you forgetting my bday. Even when i feel like want to punch you on ur face but at the same time, want to hug you so hard until theres no oxygen left.
Here i am, a few hours ago, hanging out with my nenek ku sayang. Gossiping bout others. She told me about my cousin who his boyfriend was an arabic man. And seriously, i feel like i want to tell nenek about you. Like how long we know each other,about how me met, what you do, everything but i cant coz we are just friend. We are just friend right?
And here i am again, walking in the grocery a few minute after that. I should be finding what i want to buy. But instead i thought pf you as i walking. About how i miss you so much. About how i dont want to lose you. About that punching and hugging stuff. And i am just thinking to forgive you and just forget everything ever happen.
I never had this such of feeling. And its killing me! I want to get mad at you, stay mad at you until u pujuk i. Call me mengada but u deserve it after u forgetting me born day. How could you? What kind a friend of you? The pentol and nyanyok one. Cant argue with that. Gosh, it fl so hurt. at my chest like im about to get a heart attack or a stroke. I cant stay mad at you. This is disease. I never felt something so strong like this. I mean come on, ashraf never make me feel like this. If i was mad, i was mad and do stupid stuff which i regret but it feels good. But with you its different. And i couldnt explain it. and its driving me nut! Huh! Im just going to forget about it. Let it go. Let be bygone, be bygone.. huuuu..
So, im completely honest with you. I tell you the truth. And yeah as usual u picking fight on me. And its not because of ur words coz all u do was actually pour oil on the fire. I just cant get mad at you. So, you end up giving up and give me what i want, a wish. And we talk and fight. And everything seem normal. I like it like this. Maybe we should be like this. I agree..
What happen joe? Why are you suddenly silent after that conversation? Seriously, am i being to open? Are we too fast? Are you scared? Or are you dont want it to happen? That it was a mistake? Joe, i do anything for you. You my bestfriend. You always do no matter what. Even if one day you left me and forget all about me. I think it was a mistake. I feel we should be just friend like we use to. Maybe we should be like this. Seriously joe, i rather forget and erase all mt feeling towards you then losing you. Seriously. I swear. I promise.