First of all, i bukan berubah hati dri joe ok. Hati i sgt setia ngan dia. Which is weird but i dont care. Pape lah. As long as ia xmemudaratkan i. Xpe. Yelah. Mne tau tetbe i terlalu berharap sgt pastu harapan itu musnah hancur berkecai, i yg frust menonggeng kay. And of course my heart is bleeding love. Pastu lagu patah seribu memenuhi setiap ruang di kamar ku. Ceh. Dramatic gila. Haha...
Ok2. Long time ago. Xingt ble. Tpi masa tu baru msuk ukm lah. I had a crush on one of my classmate. I xtau npe. And i dont usually do this sbb i mmg xske ada pape feeling ngan any of my classmate or orng sama umur ngan i or orng sama course ngan i. I ckp betul kay. But he was different. I like him but i dont know why. I mean he;s good looking sometime. I love his eyes. I love staring at it whenever i talked to him. I love his smile. I like him. But i love joe more. Too bad. ;)
Jgn salah anggap ok. Wlaupun actually i ada hak untuk like someone else sbb i n joe bkn official pun. We just like hold on. Tgk mana relationship ni nk bawak kteorng gi. Beside, we both kinda busy. I dgn final year n thesis nyer lgi. Dia ngan kerja dia, ada projek baru katanya. And im ok with this kind of relationship. I really am. Pelik kn? Mungkin sbb knowing joe. Dia ego and sgt rendah diri. He never said those 3 ily word
but he say it through his action and riddle. He always want the best for
me. He think i deserve someone better than him semua sbb taraf. Sdgkn
parents i xkisah pun. Taraf di sini bkn duit ye. Tpi pelajaran. He feel i
deserve someone yg sama taraf ngan i. Dia xfhm ke yg i xkisah n i want him only. Aigoo.. Ok ketepikan dahulu.
I ske this guy xde lah yg ske gila. Ni just ske ble jumpa je. Lpas tu xrasa sgt dh. Tpi dh lama kot i ske dia. Laen gila dri encik saga, Happy n sape2 lah. Bcoz this one this feeling stay. Wlaupun dlu i ingt dh xde. Tpi ada lgi rupanya. Haha. And yg pling bestnya. Im very good in hiding it. Like xde sape pun tau yg i ada feeling kt dia. I makin mantap dlm permainan ni. Yelah dlu nadia n farah sendiri ckp i xpndai hide. Cara i tenung sesorng tu expose me. But i learn. And now im good at it.
But it all just a crush. Wlaupun sekrng ni we like pretending mcm we together. Tah pape kn. Gossip smue tu. But he played along and so am i. Cuma i harap feeling ni stay mcm tu je. A crush. N i xharap dia ske i or apa2. I just harap that ada lah sket rasa ske tu kt i. Sikit je. Xperlu byk. N xperlu lelama. Kejap je.
Tpi wlaupun dlm keadaan mcm ni. Feeling i kt joe kekal. Sbb i still baca msg dia sblum i tdo or ble i bosan. Pastu i senyum sorng2. Pastu memori flash back dlm otak i. Pastu i senyum sonrg2 lagi *chuckle. Feeling i kt joe xmudah untuk hilang. I love him even if he doesnt love me. And this all just a crush. A fling while im here. Xlama nnti tu hilang lah.. kn..
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