Bebelan

To be honest i nmpk je jenis yg ramai kwn. Hu-ha sana, hu-ha sini. But to be clearly, im quite lonely. I think the people i mostly comfortable were the girls. They my everything. I couldnt leave without them. Tipu. I could cme.. keadaan dia sama mcm i hilang joe lah. Seriously broke up with your bestfriend is the worst than broke up with your lover. Mmg lah sama je we never find someone like them. Tpi bygkn bestfriend lh the one yg kau share everything. Your dirty little secret or your darkest meanist thing you ever do. So dia laen kay. Sbb kalo lover nie, aku tau korng xkn share 100% pasal diri korng ngan dia. I know they saw you in your worst time or bitch time but still, will you share to your lover psl kau pernah lost virginity or you had your first kiss. Kau xkn cte kan? Tpi ngan bestfriend kau mesti kau cte. Kn kn.. The happy time kau ngan love kau or the break up where you use lot of curse words. Yg atas tdi tu contoh je tau. Jgn fkir laen lak.

I know the girls since sklh lagi. So bygkn lah bape byk rahsia dorng tau and maybe some dh lpe kot. Bnde dh lepas dh kn. Xpenting dh. And alhamdulilah, syukur sgt2 sbb our frindship last till now. Syg korng sgt2 sbb masih bertahan dgn perangai i yg gedik, annoying n awesome nie. Hehe.. Then ble ke matriks, i met amy. Rasa prnh cte kt entry sebelum2 nie. I ingt lpas matrik dh tputus dh friendship nie sbb smue dh blajar jauh2. Wlaupun dia dduk muar n ley jumpa tpi i nie gi balik muar bpe kali lh sgt kan. So mmg jarang n x rapat mcm dlu. Tpi alhamdulilah ble text ke apa, perasaan dia sama mcm the girls. It never get awkward. We still close mcm kt matrik dlu. Insyallah next time i balik muar, I make sure i jumpa dia. Wajib. N my ex roomate kt kmj dlu, Dila. Wlaupun blajar tmpt sama, tpi fak kte jauh n masa.. haish.. bdk engineer smue busy2 belaka. Ssh sih. But still kalo jumpa tu. Sehari x ckup tok borak. We need a least 2 hari lah. Baru khatam smue cte. Yg bestnya walupun kdg2 kteorng borak psl smue yg kte kenal n the other one xkenal, tpi kte bley pura2 mcm kte mmg kenal dia lh. No awkward at all. N kt ukm nie lak, i pling rapat ngan ooi. She's a chinese + siam tpi xske bdk cina. Lawak je. Kenal masa ada program kt kolej dlu and till now still rapat. Sama je mcm dila. Borak tu mmg rasa kene sleepover kt bilik dia. Apa yg kteorng borak? Entah. Mcm2 lah. Kalo taip kt sini. Ada yg jari bengkak nie kang. My classmate pun not bad. Since i got bpolar disease. I found my fellow friend yg ada penyakit sme. So yeah we like bipolar sister. Cme i xdelah cte apa2 sgt. Still baru lagi. Just the girls, amy, dila n ooi jelah i comfortable to talk2. Apatu bipolar? Tnye encik goggle ye syg2 sekalian.

N that just the girls.. Kalo boys lak.. i xrmai kwn laki. The only one i comfortable was only joe. And it was in past tense. *sigh. But i got a few lah kwn laki cme i xselalu borak or tell my probs or secret or blah blah blah. Mcm megat n azmil. Tpi nk nmpk rmai, i cmpurkn lh sekali qaedy and izz. I mean we used to rapat masa sklah dlu2 kecuali azmil lah sbb i kenal dia kt bangi nie ha.

So yeah, tu jelah. I kalo dh rasa selesa ngan sesorng tu. N the fact that i trust them. I become the talkactive person. Yep mulut nie mcm xreti nk tutup je. Mcm sekrng cme bezanya tangan i yg interpret apa yg otak i n mulut i nk smpaikan.

Bagi i bestfriend nie smue bkn those yg u kenal lama but the one yg ada masa kau ssh n senang, n then one where you can act like yourself, who accept you for who you are n the one you comfortable with. Kalo x selesa, mcm nak lah pulak borak ngan dorng laen kali. Yedak??

Same goes with lover. Kalo xde compromise. Xley gak. Bley je if dua2 ada difference tpi bley ngam lah. Dh kalo yg sorng ske motor besar tpi kau mmg xske motor besar. Xmasuk gak kn. Kalo dia ske baca novel melayu yg jiwang karat, tpi kau ske novel melayu yg indie nyer. Bley je kot masuk. Still ada topik nk borak kn. Kn? Or i salah? Tpi tu pandangan i je. Ikut masing2 nyer view lah.