The Diaries

So i was kemas2 barang and i found a box that full with my diaries. Maigod. I almost forgot psl box nie. Dlu ada gak kemas2 and i almost wanted to throw it away. In other word, bakar lah. Gila. Orng baca kang.. Kantoi je. But then along was like, 'you should keep it'. So yeah i simpan and dh tlupa. And now i found it again.

Serious nk tgelak baca. Almaklumlh dri zaman sklh rendah smpai form 4. I start ada diary nie since darjah 4. And i wonder why i never be a writer. Haha.. Im very good at it. Maybe one day? Tpi tulah yg masa sklh rendah ler lawak. Xpe xmatang lgi. People understand that.

Betul ckp along, i should really keep it. I mean it have lots of memory and thousand of feelings and dark secrets that of course i je yg tau but then lpe. Dh bape tahun dah. Ble baca tu i was like, 'Maigod, i was like that?' or 'i never thought i was acted like a bitch or asshole' or ' i was such an awful person'. Ye mcm2 lgi. Well, i was never good nice girl dlu. Seriously. But of course xramai yg percaya. People change okay. What past is past. And yg pling xbley blah, 'i was into that guy? What was i thinking?' Haha..

And to be honest this year i dh start tulis diary balik actually. You know those time ble i break down and stop update blog i. I was runaway with my diary. It was the only hiding place i feel safe. Second tumblr. But dont worry i x berat sebelah. Once in awhile i akan update.

These diaries not just remind who i was before or how i change after all those years. It was a part of me. And beside i tpkir. Bygkn if i lose my memory mcm cte the vow. And to be clear i rasa i xkn bgitau my future other half psl blog i. It remain secret and i make sure the girls xbgitau. Gila. Dhlh blog i public. Kang dia baca. Kalo buat private nnti, farah tnye lak. So at least with diary. He knows. He just dont know where i hid it. But he would find it of course. Mana je i nk sorok dowh. Im not great in keeping things hidden except my feelings and secrets. Tu insyallah. Okay dah melarat. Haha..

But diaries just not the only thing yg buat i think the old me or those i did in the past. I gi ambik adik i kt sklh and i saw those high school yg nmpk mcm i n the girls dlu. And i was like.. 'didnt realize i was like that?' Huh. But serious. I miss the past, the memories. Tpi mcm tagline toyota, keep moving foward. And so i did.

Btw, i tetbe layan cte the nanny balik. Dlu masa sklh rendah slalu layan cte ngan aisyah. We so obsess ngan cte nie. Lawak dowh. Serious. Gi check kt youtube. Dorng dh upload full episode n season dh. Masa time study week + exam, i dok lyn cte nie. Dont worry. I study gak. Tpi otak dh jam and i need a break, i lyn the nanny. Nk lak i nyer hard disk dh kasi kt adik. Xde ler movie nyer. Youtube jelah peneman. Tulh bajet xnk lyn movie bagai. Tup2 layan gak. Haha.. Tpi serious lah i perasan, my gedikness came from the nanny. Lepas i tgk tu, i terikut2. The way i talk, the way i acted and the hand. Habitual action. Nadia n farah mesti faham. Hehe

 

 

One of the best scene in The Nanny. It keeps me laugh time stress2 exam nie

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xoxo