Sombong

Aku xtau same ada aku nie lately dah berubah atau dorng yg dah berubah. Seriously. I feel like i keep pushing people away. Mule2 muiz and now my friend that i know for 5years and goes same school as i was since standard 1. Cme mse sklh rendah tu xkenal die jelah. Different class. But i remember his face since he have a crush on of my classmate. Tapi mase form 2 baru aku kenal die. How we met? He turn out to be my ex's friend and have a crush on me. And i end up like him back. Just that we didnt get a chance to be a couple after he turn into a ghtgyjuu (phm2 jelah kan). Alhamdulilah. But after a few month he cam back and ask for forgiveness and want us to be an item. Yeah, i forgive him but i was with ashraf that time. So, we end up being a friend at last. Yeah, just friend. The term of 'friend' in my dictionary is that 'jarang2 mesej, bley ignore die kalo xde mood and xyah nk sahre ape2 cerita sgt lah kan'.

So, lately, everytime i on my facebook, die akan tegur aku. And first ayat die tegur aku bukan 'hey' tau, it was 'sombong'. Okay, xpe. Xkisah sgt. No hard feeling. But then after a while it start with 'hey'. But suddenly, enthlah die pms or something (laki mmg ade pms okay just not like girls), die just marah2 aku. Siang tu kitaorng chat okay je tau. But then malam tu, die tulis sombong. And mcm biasa aku akan balas sombong balik kat die. I mean i thought i was like a joke and it just a simple fight mcm aku n ashraf n joe slalu buat. But i was wrong coz die tetbe taip "u mati ke kalo u tegur i dulu? I dah penat explain kt org yg sombong mcm you ni. Kalau mcm ni la perangai you,baik takyah kwn lgsg. Bye." And i was like whoa.

Fyi TUH, yeah that was ur name that me and my girls give since you broke my trust. Aku xphm part mne yg kau ckp explain kat orng sombong mcm aku. Since bila kau expalin pape kat aku? Kau tu yg sebenarnya kalo xnk kwn, ckp jelah kan. Aku pun xperlu ade kawan mcm kau. And since kau dah penat explain kat aku kan, biar aku yg explain, 'yeah, you can call me sombong or whatever name you wanna say to me. But to be honest aku bukan sombong kat kau. Aku cuma malas nk chat ngan sape. Perangai aku mmg macam tu ape. Bukan dekat kau je yg aku 'sombong'. Kat my girls pun. I mean xkan lah setiap kali kalo aku nmpk farah or nad tgh on9, aku pun terus antar die mesej. Aku jenis yg bila aku ade bnde nk tnye or something cool happen, yeah, time tu aku xperlu tgk dorng on9 pun, aku boleh terus call or just text them je tau. Tapi bila kita xde pape nk ckp or xtau ape nk topik nk bincangkan, lebih baik diam n mind your own business. Kalo aku sombong, aku xkn layan kau from the beginning lagi tau. Tapi setiap kali kau text or antr chat kat fb, aku tetap lyn what. Aku bukan xnk tegur kau, aku mmg mcm tu. Dgn bf aku pun aku buat mcm tu and trust me, ashraf still can live with that until now. Die xpernah sekali pun bising aku xtext  die dulu. Die just bising aku gi layan mamat yg nk chat ngan aku je mase kitaorng couple dululah.