Caring is a disease!

I care. I care a lot. It’s kinda my thing actually. Sometime i wish that i would stop care too much literally about everything. It not the kind of care of what people think, or what people might say about me. It wasnt about the judge anymore. Coz im pretty much over it since that day i lose myself. It was about care of what people actual might feel. Was i hurt their feeling if i did this or if i say this. Or the fact that they have a bad day and it feels like i need to be understandable about their situation and i need to be there for them instead of them be there for me when i needed. And i feel a lot lately. Sometime i wish i could be some people. yg jenis selfish. yg jenis lepas tangan. yg jenis xkisah. But sadly the truth is that i am not that kind of person. Aku x tergolong dlm kategori manusia mcm tu. Maybe i was the doers instead of follow of people do or say. Well, it was nice to feel that way. Sbb kdg2 ble keje group2 ni, wlaupun aku bkn the leader but i had to be a leader, gerakkn anak buah. And somehow i had to do everything, i had to do the leader job. And it was quite depressing and stressful somehow. Sbb kdg2 tu it feels good to care less, to not care about anything at all. But i never going to feel that way. Like i say, caring is a disease and its kinda my thing actually. I care too much of those little things eventhough i dont actually care of what people say about me. Im a doers. I will always be. I think.