Having you around all those years was amazing and enjoyable. I never thought that our time is short to spend time together, to play and be together. I always looking forward to go back home, to see you, to hug and kiss you. But now, i was afraid to go home, i couldnt go home. Bcoz i felt the presence of you around me. The usual place you sleep or those place where you just sit around and watching us. That time when i was watching tv and you jump to me so you could see it with me. Or when you just want to sleep beside me or manja2. And when i tgh solat, and you sit beside me, watching me. I still feel like you were there, do things that you used to do.
I miss your voice. I miss the sound of your bell when you walking or run. I miss when you wake me up in the morning. I miss when you sleep beside me or adik. I miss dukung you. I miss hug and kiss you. I miss when we watch frozen together and i keep singing 'do you wanna build a snowman'. I think if you could talk, you would slap me and ask me to let go of those frozen thing.
But this time, i had to let go of you. And eventhought i still couldnt stop crying. I know that you in a better place. And that now you sleep peacefully. I saw you go in 60 seconds. But i felt like it was only 1 second. I felt like i wanna scream that time when they put you sleep. I want to ask them to stop. But i had to do what i had to do. I gotta let go. And move on with my life.
Im going to miss you a lot baby. In fact, all of us going to miss you. We all love you so much. And to see you suffering like that, its devastating. And we all redha with everything that happen.
Thanks darling for spark my day and my life. No one could ever replace you. And no one could compare you. But i was glad that i could see you, sleep with you, kiss and hug you for the very last time.
I love you sayang. Always do, always will and always am. I miss you a lot. Rest in peace my dear sweet little nancy. :'(
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| In memory. Nancy 2012~2014 May u find peace dear my darling :') |
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