Beautiful tragic

To be honest i never thought that the friendship that i had, that i try so hard to keep it, just came to an end. Just like that. I try to make myself feel better. I told myself that no distance can destroy our friendship. Of course we both busy with our lives but once we talked or see each other, everything fall like it used to be. But who am i kidding? It never did. I try to compare the friendship that i had with the girls or any friends of mine with you. But it was different. Eventhough the girls and i study in different place and we rarely see each other like we use to back in school. But somehow everytime that i talked to them whether call or just texting or we go meet up somewhere, all those time we separate just disappeared. It was as if we always see each other just like we in high school all over again. Nothing awkward and nothing change. But with you. It feels different. It feels like we're a stranger that just meet for the first time. There are similarities but most of it was blurring.

I miss those times when we never run out of things to say. I miss how comfortable and safe i feel whenever i talked to you. I miss how i could be my own self when im with you. I miss how happy and those bubbly feeling i felt when im around you I miss the late night deeper conversation. What happen? What really happen? I try to question myself and find something to blame. But all i end up was blaming the time and the question left un answer. I try to hold a little bit longer. Try to fight any doubt or thoughts that running around my mind. But you seem so far away and you keep on running. And i guess i get used of you not being around, of you ignoring me. So i stop trying and just let go. And its true i will never meet anyone like you but i was glad that i got a chance to know you and all the memories i had about you even though what we had was a sad beautiful tragic. 

So i guess thats why i was mesmerized with this poem. It relate to me and i am lost in those beautiful words.