Menghilang

Its getting dusty here. Mohon maaf sbb lama xupdate. Menghilang jap.

I was talking to ashraf just now. Yeah, lately i byk borak ngan dia. Jgn salah faham. We just friend. Xsalah kn if after breakup, we stay friends. As long as we know our limits. Tpi kteorng bkn mcm best buddy or whatever. He knows me well. So.. i feel very comfortable around him. Tpi still, i xde niat ape2 nk smbung blik ke ape. I move on and realize that we just not meant to be together. He was my first love and i always love him cme feeling tu xmcm dlu lah.

Anyway, we talked about kwn dia yg dok sibuk bahan dia sbb dia menghilang. Dh episode 3 uolls. Byk menghilang bdk nie. Tpi dia mmg mcm tu. Sejak i kenal dia lagi kot. Menghilang je keje.

Tpi ble dia ckp, 'Kdg2 kte kene menghilang gak'. I xphm mksud dia n xterniat nk tnye pun. But i kinda agree with him with this one. I dont know why.. Tpi kdg2 menghilang tu equal to be alone. And wlaupun no ones want to be alone dlm dunia nie. But actually it was good to be alone. You learn lot of things about yourself. Contoh u xpernah mengait. U try n u succeed. Or u tetbe nk tulis novel. Wlaupun baru bape patah perkataan. Still, u got a gift dear. Just a little bit of imagination maybe.

And lately my worlds was like full with love birds.

Thank you jess for pointing that out. Yeah. Xkisah ler antara kwn ke, sedara ke. Huh. It was so suffocating. N bkn i jealous or ape2 yg sewaktunya. It just like. Please leave me alone. And im happy for them. I do. But i feel more happier if they just leave me out of it. Like dont ask me about any guy i knew or not know. N dont act like i was loser for not having someone. Bcoz u know what i'm too awesome for them. And the fact that im heartless. So i need a really right person to make me soft again or whatever, make me a better person or something like that. I mean u guys maybe dh found the one for you, while mine is still stuck in traffic jam. So whatever. I dont mind.

But for now. I really love my life. Just like how it was. I mean yeah i might get lonely or whatever sometime. But i find something to cheer me up. I always do. N mcm mommy ckp. Im not desperate. Yeah im not. Just serious i xkisah kalo hidup dikelilingi ngan love birds. Just dont drag me with it. You deal with ur life, and i deal with mine. Tu je i nk point out.  

 

Yeah, we on the same page taylor. Just i love to sit and watch gossip girl or how i met your mother or maybe new girl.

Xoxo.