So, remember faris? That senior classmate of mine? Yg slalu hntr i blik lepas abis class cina? Yeah.. we went out just now. Dia tnya i dah mkn ke blum. Mmg blum pun. Tpi i x expect lak dia nk ajak kluar mkn. Sbb before this pun dia pernah tnya tapi tnya jelah. So, this time around i pun x expect pape lah. But then dia ajak kluar. I was like.. seriously? But yeah, we went out. Mkn kt kedai ayam penyet je. But ayam penyet dia sedap. Lgi sedap drpd yg kt wangsa walk tu. Mula2 mcm xnk lah sbb i rasa ayam penyet tu xsesuai dgn tekak i. Tpi dh orng ajak xkn nk say no lak. Rezeki tu. Dont blow away ur chance nasuha. But this one was okay. Bukan sbb i kluar ngan dia everything was okay okay? The fact that tempat tu mmg okay okay.
Mcm2 gak lak borak. I got to know about his family, about his life, his background. Sharing2 cte hantu. It was great. And who would ever thought dia pun minat kartun. Jarang jumpa laki minat kartun. Even my bro n cousin pun kurang. So, it was nice to meet someone yg ada interest mcm kita and talkactive and good listener. It was good.
Dont get a wrong assumption. Xspecially u farah. haha.. we just friend. trust me on this one. i mean i got a little bit crush on him. No doubt. But a crush is a crush. For now, i am try my hardest to let go this feeling i had on joe.
Yeah, joe text i aritu. X, i text dia. Dia bls esok harinya. But it was nice to talk to him. No, it was good. It was better actually. Bcoz this time around he be himself. The old him. My pentol. Lama gaklah kitaorng borak. Dh lama xborak mcm tu. So somehow terubat sket lah rindu tu. Then ter deep sket conversation dia.. Haha.. i n joe kn. mana ley lari dripd soal itu.
Remember when i want someone to make me feel those butterfly in the tummy, and heart beat fast and cloud 9 thingy. I still feel those with joe. But i try my hardest not to. Bukan apa.. i takut.. i takut i berhrp sgt then things didnt happen like i hope so and i heart broken pastu bukak lagu patah seribu.. kn ssh. the thing about me is that i was so hard to fall in love with someone. But when i fall, i fall hard. Serious, i rasa lepas ashraf, joe lah orng yg i btul2 ske. It wasnt crush anymore. Yg laen tu just a crush je. I wish i didnt have emotion... haha... but that was impossible right? But serious.. what if..
Nah.. life without emotion xbest. mcm mana nk nanges tgk titanic lepas nie? or happy bila tgk a really good movie.. kn2?
I ada terpkir lah what if one day joe bgitau i dia met someone, yg dia going to get marry. I know i be heartbroken. But i be okay. I know i will.. It will be so bloody hard but i will make it through it somehow. I will. In Sya Allah. :))