Ive been changing my twitter name into brave. coz somehow im feeling fearless, brave and free. Ever since i got back from perlis antr uda, well, i do a lot of thinking and almost everything. yeah, i am somehow are an overthinking girl. or maybe because this book that i bought. Its 'Single Girl to do List'. I beli pun sbb dia tulis single girl. xley blah ke? but yeah thats what caught my eyes. so, i make a list after i back from perlis.
I never was the type yg ske pakai skirt bila kluar, Dlm umah laen cte lah. I love to buy skirt sbb it look pretty ble orng pkai and pattern dia pun nice. I got a few skirt in my wardrobe but i never wore it sbb i xtau nk match ngan ape. Even when i look kat mag pun, nice kat model tu but x kat i. But now, who cares. Im going to wear it as long as i feel comfortable and confidence. So, ive been wearing it a lot lately. Haha.. Guess, imma not need jeans like i really need it before.
Colourful jeans! Theres are one yg caught my eyes. Warna purple tua. Sgt nice. Almost buy it tapi time tu pocket kering lah pulak. But it was in the list. and im going to buy and wear it. One day nasuha. One day.
Im not the kind of girl yg ske pakai make up. Im not like mai or nadh. I always go with the au natural just like my mom. Cehh.. sbb tu i kurng sket bnde2 nie. Ckup lah i pkai bedak, lip balm and perfume. but since i ada mentor si angah tu. She teach me a lot about make up. So, yeah, now i dah pndai dah pkai eye liner and mascara. haha.. still awkward and pelik lah gak. but i get use to it somehow. someday. baby step.
My parents slalu try to persuade me bawak estima. Estima tu besar kot and dia mcm bini kedua abah. Mestilah i takut2. Waja okaylah. Yg tu dah mcm kete sendiri dah. Haha.. But otw balik kl, i bawak estima. And lulus. Yeah! In fact i drive it with my bro je. Sbb time tu nk bawak gi basuh as a surprise for my dad. He so busy these day. ksian dia. so, i did this as a favor. Happy father day abah. i love you always and you always be number #1 no matter what :)
Make over. Yeah. well, i still on process. so, baru half or suku kot. pape pun, its on the way.
I love traveling. Always wanted one actually. So, i had this crazy idea. I told angah that after kita abis degree nnti, jom nk gi travel mana2 jelah. istanbul, korea, monte carlo or london. anyway. kust for fun and experience. mana2 yg ckup duit yg telah disimpan ni. and yeah she is agree. so, road trip in the future. yay!
Feelings. you know that im a type of girl yg shy, very girl-next-door type.im not like approach any guy and like hey i like you so call me maybe? Haha.. but i this huge step. It is a huge to me. So, i confess my feelings to a guy ive been in love with since i dont know when. and eventhough he didnt say anything. but it feels good coz i let it all. the burden somehow. i wanted to know the answer but i couldnt risk of losing him. to be honest, when he ignore me for a week, i feel so messed up. everything seem just wrong. but alhamdulilah everything okay now. i ask him to forget what i say and move on. so, thats what weve been doing now. Picking up where we left behind. in fact he just whatsup me yesterday and everythings okay. no awkwardness anymore. Phuu.. maybe its better this way. let the time and fate do its job. but it feel awesome like i can do anything i want. i dgr lagu 22 kot lepas dia xlyan i. i patut dgr lagu sdey tapi i x. xley ler. xtau lah nape. its always like this when it involve him. i cant explain anything. huh! frust i tau!
Result kluar aritu. alhamdulilah, i got more than i hope and expect. syukur. i still dont know what i want to be so kita tunggu dan lihat jelah. that was the best when being this young, wild and free.you dont have to decide now. just enjoy ur life. fall in love. dream big. laugh a lot. do mistake. take a risk. cherish the moment and the people around you. Gosh, i love my 19 and onwards. i guess. haha.. :D