Kotak Hitam

I'd lie when i said i delete everything about ashraf coz the truth is there is still a piece of him left behind. Well, i just not ready to let him go. Yeah, i confess it. I open my kotak hitam n seeing those sweet things i had we him once upon a time. I even found my old diary. Gosh, how i miss those days i had with him a few years ago. I really wish i could turn back the time n change everything. If things was different.. I admit that sometime i do feel like i want to texting him but everytime i felt that way, i kept reminding myself why i'd leave him and i change my mind. Actually my mind keep changing a dozen a time. It still now.

But i think it is time for me to really let it all go. I think i am ready now. so, i delete his number and a few of his texting (gosh, i miss that word he said!). But i still safe a few things i had together with him in taht old kotak hitam. That box, i mean colour really just show the darkest of my past! haha.. kidding! but kinda true kot.. but seriously i think i am ready to get over him now.. so, i want to start my new life without him bugging in my head like always.

Angah tnye aritu, 'mcm mne kalo awk jumpa ashraf blik?'.. And i was like 'NO! I DONT WANT TO MEET HIM! NEVER EVER FOREVER!'. But then i thought, hey, it wont be that bad. I think if i met him, aku akan berlagak biasa je.. Nothing to worry about. I think lh...

But hey, i can always change my mind right? ;)