Am i pretending?

Sometime i felt i am pretending around them. But sometime i felt like i really do like him. The truth is i didnt have a clue about it. But lately, i've been less thought about him. Less missing him. I think i become HEARTLESS kot!Haha.. Nolh.. I never going to be heartless person. I repeat, NEVER!

Ok2.. When i am around my twin, i kinda said those thing i didnt really mean it. I mean, mak joe ok? seriously, his mom mmg ok but that just is. N i miss Joe? Of course i miss him. He was my bestguyfriend. I miss him like i miss any of my friend. (i think). wait, sure i did ok!

Then, when i'm around my girls, i said those thing again. Marrying Joe? Haha.. u gotta be kidding me. haha.. serious, i didnt felt a thing when i said those thing. no giggles, no.. NONE! But i seriously dont noe why i said those thing. It was pretty stupid really..

I confess that i really really like Joe. I really do. He's the reason i move on and want to felt this feeling again. He's the reason i make a right choice by walked away from ashraf ( and i didnt regret it). But to be honest, when i know he had a girlfriend, dia xdelh beri effect ape2 pn tau. Aku pn xtau npe. It so weird how those tears drop my guitar song wasnt for him..

But to be sure, this feeling shouldnt last and i really didnt coz i didnt really had a feelings towards him anymore. and i think it just should stay like that till... i dont know. we just see n just go with the flow..

I think, back to december song is the perfect for us now. wouldnt it Joe?