things u never know

ye.. aku merapu lgi.. tpi nk bwat mcm mne?? things just doesnt feels so right. tetbe hati aku terasa kosong n sakit. aku rindu kn kau. nope. it wasnt akmal. i check it the last time n seriously it wasnt him. it was u ashraf. yeah, kau. aku xtau npe aku tetbe ingt kt kau, say things i never say. sumph dowh aku benci this feeling. like hell i hate it. aku xpatut rindu kau. n pling penting aku xpatut menangis! menangis bkn dpt selesaikn ape2. it just show how weak i am. xspecially ble aku cry ttg lelaki. but i couldnt help it. aku rindu kau. sgt. aku rindu jaga kau mse kau accident. aku rindu kau jaga aku mse aku demam.aku harap sgt aku dpt jumpa kau. aku harap sgt kau call aku. aku hrp sgt kau dtg blik. n xtau npe i wish i could turn back the time n stay in the past which was a year ago. mse kte mle2 kenal. kte kenal pn secara pelik. myspace beb?? gle ah. how i let a cyber guy came into my life that easy. but yeah i already did. lgipn mse tu aku pn tgh frust xde ehem ehem n kau lak tgh wait aku. so aku terima. n u really did change my life. u fill my day with ur text. aku ingt lgi time kte gduh psl bola. yeah,kau mmg minat gle MU. smpai sekrng aku xpasti ape lh yg best ttg MU setakat ego n angkuh dorng? aku ingt lgi time kte date dlu. kau selalu teman aku wlaupn jauh. u make me very special. n kau lh laki pertama yg aku stay n loyal with. hmm, that expain npe kte plih lagu stay by estrella as our song. wlaupn kte ade gduh sometime but kau slau tau mcm mne nk make thins right yet u always give me a win. n wlaupn ade time2 mmg like byk girl yg flirt with u but aku xkisah coz u r mine. u always be mine. n i trust u. kau teach aku bout love n make me did things i never did, in a good way k.. tapi tu kisah setahun yg lepas.but somehow it felt just yesterday. sekrng kau dh laen. even mase kte couple blik pn, i felt different with u. aku rse aku couple ngan guy yg ade smue ciri luaran ashraf yd dlu but inside, die adalah Ash yg laen. But still i ignore it coz deep down inside i know we wont last. n yeah it did cme u ended it too soon. it still hurt wlaupn aku xnk berharap ape2. but the truth is i am already fall for u. i always did. but u never know. nevertheless care. but really, i wish the best for your life. i hope u dpt ape u nk dlm idup u. i hope u bhagia with whoever beside u. n i hope... well, aku xdelh hrp sgt but really.. please, just please, dont forget bout me, bout us.