A friend of mine found that it was odd or strange to still befriend with your ex. Bcoz in his opinion, ex is an ex like past is a past. Xde bnde nk dikenang. What happen in Vegas, stay in Vegas kinda way lah kan. Bnde dh lepas, so kita patut letak dia jauh2. Xperlu dikenang or sewaktu dengannya. Nak2 lak ex kte tu byk bgi kita kenangan buruk, kinda like the worst heartbreak ever. Dh tentu lah kita nk buang dia jauh2 kan.. He actually has the same opinion ngan my mom. And to be honest bende ni i xnk argue pun sbb masing2 ada pendapat and view sendiri kan. And i respect that.
In my case, i xdelah befriend with all my ex. The only one yg i still close smpai sekrng is ashraf. Ye, wlaupun pun dlu rasa2nya dh byk kali i sumpah seranah dia. Serious kay. And the breakup, maigod, worst feeling ever. Sape je xsedih kay. Nak2 lak time tu i mmg fikir i dh jumpa the one. I fikir i akan spend my whole life with ashraf. I xnk orng laen dh. For me, he is enough. Masa tu lah. N masa tu pun everything seem serious and i took it serious. I lak jenis yg mmg xserious dlm relationship. Semuannya i anggap cinta monyet je wlaupun ble break nangis bagai nk rak gak lah. Kot. But ashraf was different and maybe sbb tu i decide to be serious, to stay, to just be loyal for this once. But who knows. Allah had greater plan for me and him. And mmg i ngan ashraf xde jodoh to be 'they lived happily ever after'. And i redha. And slowly i move on. And sekrng ble fkir balik pun... i miss him and the memories. But together again, i pass.. Hehe..
So, after we broke up. Which nk kata horrible mcm xsgt lah. Bcoz its not that we fight or he cheat ke apa. It just.. snang ckp perasaan tu xde dh. And he feel guilty sbb ni dh kali ke bpe kot. Yep, before that kteorng ada break like a few times gaklah sama ada i mintak or dia. But i also realize that im not in love with this new him. So i let him go. And he let go of me. And he did ask to stay friend after this breakup. And he understand i need some time. And i did took my time. Rasanya nk dekat a year mcm tu baru i start contact dia. And now smpai sekrng. Xdelah slalu contact tpi ble contact tu xdelh rasa awkward sgt. Everything normal. Ala, mcm kwn lama2 gitu. Beside, kteorng dh lama together. We know each other flaws. Kteorng dh terbiasa bersama. So smue dh fhm hal masing2. Janji xde pape deeper feeling involve. I really dont mind. Slalunya feeling2 yg mcm tulah yg merosakkan actually. Ashraf lah one of the guy yg i comfortable tok cte apa2 masalah ke apa selain my dad, adik n joe. Mcm i ckp, i dh terbiasa dgn dia.
Ok, so, it was really okay actually for you to stay friend with your ex. As long as dua2 dh move on. Xde dh feeling2 tu lgi dh. Semua dh cmpak ke tempat laen. What past is past kan. Buat pe simpan lagi. Ye, mmg kdg2 ada masa ble kte meroyan. Kte mcm hope bnde kembali pada asal, and u guys still together, blah blah blah. Normal untuk rasa mcm tu. Mcm taylor swift ckp. 'just because you clean, dont mean you didnt miss it'. Aku pun kdg2 dtg gak meroyan tu. Dia ok sbb kau jgn lah pulak dtg merayu kt dia. Kau simpan feeling tu sorng. Esok lusa ilang ler. Trust me. Kalo xilang gak. Kau x move on. Pergi step yg pertama cara2 nk move on balik. Gi gi gi.. *sambil buat gaya tangan menghalau
And yg pling2 penting, dua2 mmg kene agree to remain friend after break up. Kalo kau je agree, dia x. Tak ke nnti ble kau contact dia, dia ingt kau nk merayu kt dia sruh kembali. Eh, xde masa aku. And second pling penting, x awkward. Yelah u guys kan ada history. So mesti bila berborak tu mcm ada limited sket. Mungkin nk gurau rasa mcm melampau lak ke apa. Pastu nk tnye private life dia lak dh mcm minah kepoh, stalker, pervert. Kalo memula tu biasalah, sbb baru lagi kan.. Dh lama2 tu chill je. Dh leh jadi member. Mcm i ngan ashraf, dh xkisah dh borak psl apa. I could ask about his gf, and he could ask me about my love life. Pastu lagilah aritu xtahu malu mintak dia wish bday i. Hehe.. Gedik kan.. Tu i ckp, kalo dh lama2 nnti, biasalah.. Everything semua take time.
Tpi nk ingtkan ada gak yg certain ex kte tu ckp kt mulut je nk remain friend bagai lepas break. Pastu haram jadah. Ble i tegur, dia ingt i nk mekar kn bunga2 yg layu. Eh eh, aku bkn ahli sihir ley kembang kn bunga yg layu nk mati tu. Orng tnye khabar je. Dia block iaku kot lepas tu. Sadis2. Tpi lantaklah. Bukan heran sgt pun. And of course there are a few yg mmg korng akan rasa mcm nk remain friend tu mcm impossible sgt. Bkn sbb korng break secara xbaik ke apa tpi maybe sbb ble ditgk2 kn balik, mmg cinta monyet pun. Kau sendiri xtahu npe kau ngan dia. Masa tu mungkin zaman nk up. Xpe2. I fhm. Haha..
Ha, tu jelah kot. Xde idea apa lagi. Ada nnti i tambah. Insyallah. And all of this i ckp melalui pengalaman sendiri and pengalaman orng lain and my point of view. Nk tmbah pape pun boleh. I open minded. Saya xkisah.
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