have u ever had those feeling that u really want that thing but you know u cant. so, u try to learn to let it go..
im rethinking about joe. maybe he was right all along. maybe we are not right for each other. it wasnt because i was good and he was bad. it was more than that. everything just seem wrong. but somehow it does feels right. why my heart ache? no, nasuha.. u gotta let him go. u gotta let go this feeling. u do it once. im sure u can do it all over again. its for the best. maybe we just gonna end up being friends for the rest of our lives. or we end up being stranger because something terrible happen in the future. emm.. pretty dramatic. the thing is i like him. i really do. for once after ashraf, he make me feel like me. whenever im with him, it just like i dont care what people thing. if i want that minions toys at mcd, i will get it kinda feeling, it was like nothings even matter. what am i bubbling about? i was suppose to stop talking about him. i need to find a boyfriend. but i cant because my life kinda pretty messed up now. ugh! anyway, i just want to think something else beside result upu nk kluar this thursday and i had a disaster dream. and trust me, it was disaster. btw, happy fasting :)
and the fact that i just done whatsapping with joe just now. things kinda weird after that whole conversation. he was more in using awak saya. something i still trying to adjust myself with. luckily it was texting. if its not, im sure the i and u will came out. but i like this way. it just i was wondering what am i really meant to him? am i just a friend? or more than that? or nothing. or just a rebound girl. or nothing. u know what. save it. i dont want to know now.
u know maybe i was wrong for the previous previous post. joe wasnt my chuck if i was blair. he was dan if i was blair. he always there for me. always supporting me in whatever i do. he is my knight in shining armour but not that kinda prince charming way kay. but i guess, this one was okay. just i hope i could getting over this feeling someday.