Smpai sekrng i xsangka u ley fkir i nie mcm pompuan materialistik or gold digger or more specific pisau cukur. Wey, i dont gave a damn bout you money kay. U ingt i nie ape nk kawan n kahwin ngan orng kaya je? Just because u anak dato and you got a car when you were what form 3 and you live big mansion, i akan fall over heels over you. Sorrylah i think you just met a wrong person. To be honest, bila i dgr bnde nie smue, the first thing on my mind. Tet!!! Reject!! You mmg baik but i xphm nape u perlu sebut you belanja 2k kat pavi? Perlu ke sebut amount? For what? For brag? And the most annoying thing about you is that you ske jatuhkn orng. You ske low kn self esteem seseorng itu. I tau lah i masuk matriks je. I might or might not kene lelong. But still, masa depan i still kabur lagi. Sedng kn u dah masuk U wlaupun diploma. But perlu kn you mempersoalkn npe i msuk matriks tu and that matriks tu susah and that u kenal sorng senior tu yg pernah masuk matrik then drop pastu masuk U u tu, point mmg 4flat je. I mean masing2 lah kn. Mybe dia fkir dia xley buat. So, dia drop lah. Nasib baik lah that time i tu dah msuk sem2 kalo x ada kemungkinan dah terpengaruh. U tnya i, i plih ape upu. Tapi xsempat i nk jwb. You dh ckp ambik physiotherapy sbb u pun ambik bnde tu. Yeah, i ngaku dlu i mmg fkir nk ambik but then now i xambik lngsung. Bukn sbb cara u tu meluat kn i tapi tu pun salah satu sbbnya sebenarnya. But it was so hard. I blajar basic pun xphm ape lagi nnti kalo ambik. Then u ckp ape susah senang je. Yelah, otak kau otak ape? Otak aku surface je. You should know that i lead not follow. Then, sesedp hati label aku gf kau lah, bestfriend kau lah. Wei, u dont know anything about me. You just pretend you know. Bcoz if you know me, you would listen. But you never did.
And i adalah sdara kat matriks tu, sama kelas lak tu. And sbb kitaorng sama kelas, sama matriks, others expect us to be close. Like super close mcm 24/7 together. I mean i admit dulu masa kecil, aku,angah n dia mmg rapat lah. main pondok2 sama2. mmg selalu bertiga lak tu. But suddenly one day we grew apart. I guess that was a part of growing up kot. Tapi time kcik2 tu mana reti nk discuss ke ape. So, we just let it be. Xnk kwn sudah kan.. Buat ape nk paksa2 kan.. So, sbb that day we just stop talking to each other and only left me and angah, But then, as we become teenager and going to mature, we start talk cuma xlah closed like we use to. And i dont think i can be close with her like we use to anymore. I mean i try tapi xbley. Tok borak2 kosong tu lah but to get deeper than that, thats hard. I rasa i xley nk ngan ngan cara dia kot. Mcm mai n murnie. Tok kawan biasa2 tu ley lah but to get too closed, thats impossible. It just nevr going to happen. It never work out. Tpi rasanya nk terangkn kt orng yg lik super friendly and xpernah rasa ape yg i rasa, thats hard. and im tired nk terangkn. I mean just deal with it kay. Bukan i xley ckp ngan dia lngsung. I ley. Just that we xrapat. Cuba lah faham!
Huh! Rasa geram tau x. I just hat people judge me without knowing me or knowing th story. And to tell them was lik talking to the wall. Talking to the moon tu is a different story. And i just hate people pretend like they know me too well. Well, you dont know anything about me.
