19

Alhamdulilah. Still breathing. Still got a chance to celebrate my 19th bday. Thanks for those yg wish. Really appreciate it. Mommy and daddy keep asking me ape yg i nk for my bday and honestly i have no idea. So, i ask bnde yg basic,simple and senang. Dpt makn kat pizza pun jadilah. Xtau nap i crave tok pizza. dlm sebulan sekali tu adalh agk tetbe rasa nk mkn. tapi rasa je so still ley tahan lagi. Tapi dorng xpuas hati. So, i gave a gave up answer. Surprise me. And they did. They gave me things i always want it as a present. a perfume and a card. a bouquet of flowers that i love. and a place i like to eat sometime.

Pagi tadi, mai called ajak breakfast. Mula mmg malas. But then fkir qaedy last day. esok nk fly dah. i pun agree. so smpai kat diva, dorng buat2 tanya tarikh hari nie pulak. haish.. so, yeah they wish me and qaedy belanja breakfasttdi. thanks qaedy. nadia and farah wish as usual. Nadia pling semangat. Mmg tepat kul 12 dia whatsupp. aww.. so sweet. angah and family and my family wish i. nie wajib. haha.. nadh being unforgettable so dia lupa. yeah, dah biasa dah. haha.. tapi dia wish wlaupun dia terlupa. its okay nadh. thanks sayang. jgn lpe belanja i nnty. haha.. izz wish i. surprise. saje wish lmbt. my old friend, mzi wish i and we whatsupp smpai sekrng. lama kn.. my old crush or still crush wish i. and i flirt. i admit that. im not gonna lie about that. haha.. skndal kt kmj pun wish i wlaupun lmbt and i flirt. dia skandla i kay. haha.. dila and teha wish i. amalina wish i. nnek mcm biasa. hehe.. cucu ksayangan lah katakn. haha.. yeah.. tu je.. bunyi mcm sedeh je,,

Tah sedey pun. im happy sbb korng ingt. so sweet of u guys. trasa or trkilan je kot. This year ashraf xwish i. wlupun i nmpk dia on9. emm.. xpelah.. guess he already forget about me. actually he already since i wish bday dia aritu. Yep, thats my que to leaving. and i will.. i will.. joe pun xwish i this year. yg nie mmg trasa gila boleh x. he was friend. how can he forget wlaupun dia busy sekali pun. it just so weird. it didnt seem like joe at all. i buakn nk kata ape, but thing just different since that day we being honest. i guess things im feared the most finally happen. i lost him i guess. i should just shut up. it was a mistake, a big massive mistake, i shouldnt lead him on. i shouldnt say a thing. i ada text dia aritu but he never reply. he never did. and seriously i xkisah. i get to use to it. But not this one. this one is and exception. what happen joe? am i being to open? are you afraid? coz i am too.. but i guess its done now. its done.

Ape i nie cte sedey2 lak. okay, cut it. im happy. im 19. next year 20. may everything went well throughout my 19. insyallah. amin. and im gonna live this life and being happy like i use to before things happen. i mean, i still got a long way to go. we cant predict about the future. so, why waste planning it if we can hope and just go with flow and follow our own heart and intuition. nmpk x bly jadi ahli falsafah nie.. haha.. anyway, happy bday to me. fabulous 19 :)

ze present. thanks mommy, daddy and adik

gabriella.. rasnyalah. smpai sekrng xingt nama dia. but it was mmg fab tapi warna merah mmg nice lah but i love it.

smue pink. can u spot it?