And now i cant stop thought of you. So, here i am, laying on my bed, listen to I Can Wait Forever non-stop while wrote this post. Why this song? It was the song he used to dedicated to me. No, its not like i will wait for him forever. I was low in patience. I didnt remember much about you and us. We were so young that time and we just wanna have fun. Even i didnt know what i was thinking or want that time.
No, im not gonna sing Back To December song. To be honest, i dont want us getting back together eventhought sometime it cross my mind what if we stayed?
I remember the way the way you treat me. You are the nicest and sweet guy i ever know. But i hurt you. Deep. And im sorry. Any girl who have you are lucky. And i meant it this time. I never regret knowing you coz somehow you make me realize that a good guy like you exist in this cruel world. :) but i regret for the mistake i did. that maybe we both did. but if i use my logically more, these thing wont happen. but hey, things already did happen and who am i to change it. Im not god nor that i know how to invent time machine. Those thing exist in the movie only. Sad life.
I repeat. this is a messed up feeling. coz im being this emotional bitch. Im not hoping you remember me but i did somehow hoping i cross in ur mind sometimes. And no, im not gonna wish we will getting back together coz it just so wrong. You and me. It just didnt feel right. Beside,our story like romeo and juliet. But im the version of juliet who letting go her romeo and listen to her dad.
And somehow im glad i made that decision coz look where we are right now. You had the career you want ( i think) and a lovely girl beside you. While i.. i still got a very long way to go and a guy that i just realize that ive been falling for since i dont know when. But telling him now seems like wasnt a right time now. Well, insyallah. Kalo ada, x kemana pun :)
i pray the best for you dear. always. :)
