Hai... Baru lepas abis tgk cte ombak rindu with my mummy and grandmother. I admit cte tu sedih. aku tgk rmai yg nangis. Aku x okay... Cte tu mmg sedih tapi bgi aku, sedih di hati je lah, xsmpai kt mata lgi. Sbb tu aku xnangis... Aku teringt something ble watak lisa tu ckp yg die dari kecil lgi ingt/becita2 nak kawin ngan watak aaron aziz tu. Aku pun teringat lah something.. jeng jeng jeng...
3 years ago, i met a very nice guy. Kteorng kenal kt myspace. Yelah, zaman tu zaman myspace. fhm2 jelah. Tapi die ala2 cinta muka buku lah, cme die cinta ruang ku. Get it? Ruang ku aka my space?? hehe.. xde keje.. He was so nice and sgt understanding pasal nape aku xkasi nombor aku kt die. Mase aku approve die or mase aku borak2 ngan die, aku xrse mcm dlm lgu cinta muka buku tu. Aku nie mcm heartless skte lah. And time tu, serious aku ckp yg aku x expect pun die akan jdi a very important person in my life. Mcm aku ckp, aku heartless. Die ade or xde, perasaan aku tetap sme. Walaupun im a big flirt. Haha.. Seriously. Tapi at least, lepas a month kwn, i gave him my number and it lead to unexpectant life. Seriously.
3 years ago, he become more than friends with me. He was my boyfriend now. Eventhought he was my second prize or choice, i try to like him. He was so sweet. He wish me gudnite and morning. No one ever did that to me actually. I wasnt a good gf though. I keep hurting him and blaming him. I did that so he will leave me. He is too nice for me. But somehow, seeing him so patient with attitude make me realize something. Hurting him make feel something. And one fine day, i say those 3 words without passionate and he was so happy. So happy that i know if i did something wrong after this, he will getting hurt and i will feel the acne also. So, i learn to accept him in my life. I learn to love him, to trust and to be loyal. I learn lots of things from him. And i wear hijjab finally. Haha.. But most of all, he make me feel wonderful.. seriously..
3 years ago, i thought i found my prince charming. I thought he is the one. I finally found my happy ending. And it seems like it complete my fairytale. He fill my day with his word almost everyday. I feel like i own the world. I stop flirt and lay my eyes on other guy cause now i got him. I dont know what my life will be without him. Seriously.
3 years ago, he left me all alone. Without any explanation. Without giving me chances to say about how i feel. I saw the difference about him. i feel like he is not himself. He's someone else. What hurt the most is that he cheated on me and then choose her. He throw me away from his life even he said he wants to be friend. I feel like i lost almost everything. I feel like my world is dark. I cant do anything. I try to stop him but he still go. I wait for his text almost everyday but he never come back. And i did imagine things as if he would come back one day. He said forever and always. He cant just forget about his promise. And i cry almost every day. Seriously...
After 3 years ago, i finally moving on. I admit sometime i do feel like missing him and love him but the feeling is not the same like before and beside, he was my first love. It is normal to feel that way somehow. We still remain as friend now. I never thought i could befriend him, i mean, after all the feeling of 'i cant move on', i thought i could never see him with someone else as it hurt so much. Tapi alhamdulilah coz aku berjaya! Aku bejaya teruskan hidup dan buka buku baru. Plus, forgive him and forget the past. Aku berjaya jdi kawan die. Tu yg pling penting! Dulu, pantang nmpak die ade ske pompuan laen or dh ade gf, aku dh mle lyn lu jiwang2 sedih tapi sekarang, aku gembira tok die. Aku stilll ngan perangai lme iaitu stalk die cme sekrng niat die dh laen, i just want to know how his life seems. Alhamdulilah, everything is okay. insyallah, one day die akan jumpa girl yg akan complete tulang rusuk kiri die dan aku akan jumpa guy yg akan aku complete tulang rusuk kiri die. I think this is the prefect ending. The happy one and its not like fairy tale at all. It's nasuha's tale somehow.. hehe.. seriously.. :)
So, lesson learn die.. Kdg2 kte xdpt ape yg kte nak dlam dunia nie. Tapi jgn putus asa dan teruskan berdoa pada Allah S.W.T. Insyallah, Allah Maha Mengetahui. Die dh tentukan jalan yg terbaik untuk kte. :)