Not that type anymore

I knew you were staring at me. Peek on me as if i dont realize it. Yeah, maybe i couldnt see it but i could feel it. Its weird how it didnt give me the butterfly or giggling things that it used to. I knew that it didnt really meant anything, really, coz u with her now and i can see how happy and lovely you guys seems are. Yeah, you might be think i got jealous. Well, fyi, i didnt somehow. To be honest, i love staring or looking at you but to be with you once again... i dont think so! ;p I already moving on a very long time ago and i am somehow ready to let go my first love so that another love will appear. I still know it does not mean anything even though my friends keep bragging on it. I know deep down on me. Tomorrow or soon, it will come back to the way they are. You with her, chatting and touching. While i am with my best friends giggle and laughing. I miss our old times. I really do. If i could turn back the time. I really would freeze the times... for about 15minutes. Why so short? Well, i had lots of other 'old times' i want to be with, you know... ;p You may think that i would giggle and smile widely. Well, YOU ARE WRONG! I am not that little girl you know 4years ago. Times really does change me a bit. I am no longer that type of girl you know. Even if i want to, i just couldnt. I dont know how to be that kinda of girl anymore. Thanks to ashraf for manage to change me completely. But i think i would probably giggle if that abg topup flirty with me.. haha.. ;p