Possibility, This Is My Wish..

I've been thought of you a lot lately..
I dont know why i did it but i did..
When i heard 'The Times' songs played on the radio,
and when i tune in Livin' Rock and Roll by The Azenders,
you just came there in my head..
I didnt even realize it actually..

Thinking of you have been part of my apple time..
it make me smile and laugh at the same time,
whenever i thought of u,me,us..
i havent feel this kind of feeling for quiet sometime..
but now i feel it again..
but i never thought u who the one that will bug me in my head..

haha.. its funny,
how i told myself that i wont going to have a crush on you..
how i deny it when i felt something somehow..
i still remember the tone of your voice the other day,
when you said that you miss me and that i never understand you..
yeah, its true..
i never understand you..
not on this..
you know that i was stupid when it comes to love?
after what happen to me and ashraf,
i become insecure till i cant even open my heart to anyone no more,
but somehow, i did..
i open my heart to you..
i really did..

i'd lied when i said that i dont miss you..
i'd lied when i said i wont fall for you..
i'd lied when i said i dont believe you..
and i did lied to them when i said i had no feeling anymore toward you..
coz if i dont,
why did i miss you?
why did i want to hear your voice so bad?
why did i want to see your face once again?
why did i wait for you?

the truth..
i didnt have guts!
everyone knows that..
i dont know why i cant admit my feeling to you..
not like i did before this..
i know you are my bestfriend..
but i have fall for my bestfriend a lot..
and somehow i didnt mind express my feeling towards them..
but it was different when it comes to you..
i just couldnt..
i couldnt break our friendship..
i cant facing the world if i ever lose you..
i dont why..
its true i dont want to break our ties,
but ade kene mengene ke muka tembok aku dh pecah?

i remember told myself,
that my life would suck without ashraf..
its true somehow..
but it last only a few month..
coz i felt happiness once again..
but it was way to truth,
that my life would suck without you..
coz i had felt that..
gosh, it was hurt and i felt really lonely..

u always fill my day with ur jokes, bubbling..
and when you are not here..
your text always fill my day..
i still ingt mase you bwat jokes,
pasal lpas u graduate you nk pinang i..
yeah that time i thought it was joke and we laugh..
but somehow now i wish it was reality..
i never talk about marriage to any guy..
i mean not like our conversation..

we always fight like a couple..
we always lovey-dovey like dating..
but we were just friends..
most of the people i know,
will say 'nape u xcouple ngan die?',
'u guys look cute together.',
'ala, you guys nnti at last mesti together'...
did you know that i always wish that thing going to happen to us one day..

eventhought you with her now..
to be truth i didnt get jealous, not one single bit..
but i did miss you, us..
i know you wont forget me..
coz baru aritu u talk to me about you went to concert..
yeah, i love when you sharing things with me,
eventhought sometime i had to admit,
u are really hard to read..

anyway,
i wish the best for you.. and her..
seriously!
haha.. dont forget me, eh??
and you always be the special guy i had.. ;))